This morning, around 8 or 9 or so, I was woken up by Rapunzel shaking my shoulder.
I leaned over to give her a kiss, but she quickly pulled away to ask if I heard something.
"Wh-" she put a finger on my lips, and I quieted down.
"I hear...a baby crying? No, two - why do they sound so familiar?" she asked, one brow quirked.
I listened. It sounded like Allie and Hallie. "Allie and Hallie familiar?" she added.
Her finger was still on my lips, so I kissed her fingertip so she'd get the hint, and nodded. She pulled her hand away from my face and stood. "I'm going to check stuff out. It sounds like they're up somewhere on this shelf."
I sat up and told her to be careful - I decided to stay on the shelf.
She nodded and went to braid her hair.
Before she left - Jase had decided to go with her, and Merida was up and prowling around already, too - she told me she was taking Jase.
I laid back down to go to sleep or something whilst she was away.
But after awhile, I heard Rapunzel's strained, angered voice, along with Merida, who sounded like she was going to jump whoever she was confronting. Sooo of course I decided I'd better go investigate.
I quickly scaled the shelving unit till I found my wife and Merida.
Merida was saying, with a level voice, I might add..."-You are a complete and utter jerk, you don't deserve these kids! Why did you even want them bad enough to LIE to Tangled Fan, if you just let them lay and cry?! I'll talk to Tangled Fan. I'll tell her you lied! You'll-"
"Everything okay?" I came over to my wife and took Hallie from her arms.
I gave Hallie a goofy grin, and she smiled up at me. My heart squeezed and I so wished she was still ours.
"Who are you? I haven't seen you around. You're really good with kids, aren't you?' Someone asked. I looked up from Hallie, and noticed a Barbie doll. She wore an over-the-top dress, had makeup all over her face, ice-cold blue eyes, and short-ish hair that looked kind of ratty.
I put an arm around Rapunzel, mentally being glad that I had married her and not a Barbie like her, and said, "I'm Flynn, and this is my gorgeous wife, Rapunzel - but you've met already, right?"
"Yeah...and that's too bad. I guess love IS blind." She said with a sigh. I just stared at Rapunzel. She caught me staring at her and gave me a quick, cute little smile before she turned towards the Barbie.
"We could...you know, babysit them whenever you have, like, a date?" she said.
"I leave them up here all the time - they're okay."
"But they'd be happier if they had-" Merida stopped when the Barbie held her hand up and told us to leave.
I quite reluctantly put Hallie down, took Allie from Merida, and then laid her down, too. Rapunzel left to grab Jase, and we left.
I wondered what had gotten Rapunzel and Merida so riled. I also wondered if she actually did anything with the babies or if she just left them lay around all the time. And I wondered what Rapunzel and Jase were talking quietly about - but I didn't press.
When we got back to our shelf, I took Jase from Rapunzel's arms.
"Why don't you try to talk to her, honey? She seems like she's hiding something that includes HB." My wife said to me quietly, with a creased brow.
I rubbed a thumb over her forehead to smooth her wrinkled brow and told her not to worry. "Why don't you go talk to Rayne and Blondie? I'm sure you and Merida are about ready to start a riot."
She rolled her eyes jokingly. "Thanks. I'll be back in awhile." She turned and left to gather the trio.
While they talked - once in awhile, I could hear loud, conspiratorial noises coming from the foursome - I talked with Jase.
"So, do you know HB?"
"Yeah, Daddy. You have to get Hallie and Allie away from her." She said, crawling into my lap when I sat down.
"Why?" I asked her.
"You know why, right?" She looked at me with wide, innocently concerned eyes.
"No I don't, honey, so why don't you let me know why?"
"I don't wanna talk about it."
"If you tell me, we'll be able to help Hallie and Allie out better." I said, hating to see her go so stone-faced so quickly. "And if not...maybe I'll have to tickle you!" I grabbed her up and started to tickle her.
She shrieked with laughter. "Okay, okay! She was just mean. She never did anything with me and yelled at me if I asked her to play with me or something. That's all. And she was never around, she was always going out with some Ken doll."
I nodded. "Well, thank you for telling me, sweetheart."
She looked me in the eye and took my face into her teensy hands. "You're welcome, Daddy!" she kissed me on the cheek and gave me a dimpled smile.
"So maybe, because you're such a cute little girl, I'll still have to tickle you." I said slyly, and she started giggling and pushing at my arms even before I tried to tickle her.
I chased her and played with her for the majority of the afternoon and evening, until she collapsed on my lap, instantly asleep. I put a hand on her small arm and I guess then I dozed off as well.
The next thing I knew, Jase was sleeping behind the alarm clock.
I stood and turned to see my wife was back home, sitting on the wicker chair. She was chewing her lip, forehead wrinkled, and she drummed her fingertips on her leg.
I walked behind the chair and dropped a kiss in her hair.
"What're you thinking about? I'm sure Tangled Fan will take care of getting the babies away from HB, so don't you worry about that."
She shook her head and smiled, but faltered when she said she wasn't worried about anything.
"Come on, I know that look." I grinned at her.
"It's...nothing...so don't worry about it," she said quietly.
"Then why are YOU worrying about it?"
She shrugged, and I took her by the hand, led her behind the lamp, and sat down.
I patted my lap, but she sat beside me instead.
"Tell me," I said, searching her eyes.
"I...It's just that...never mind. It doesn't matter, and it's dumb." She turned her face away from me.
I gently brought her chin back around. "No matter how dumb, I promise I won't laugh and will consider your concern in all seriousness."
She sighed. "Fine. I just - after seeing HB, I feel kind of ugly. I mean, I feel bad that you're stuck with me, and not someone prettier or someone who can actually change her appearance once in awhile! And I just...I dunno."
I stared at her, concerned, before I answered. I couldn't believe that my wife thought she was ugly and that I didn't like her because of it!
"Honey, don't you dare ever think you're not beautiful. You're gorgeous! And I'm not concerned with outward beauty, more like inward beauty. And HB...she wasn't even really that stunningly gorgeous! More like a catty mean girl to me. And besides-"
She grabbed my shirt collar and pulled me in to a passionate kiss before I could finish. I was kind of surprised, but I kissed her back. When she finally pulled away from me, she said, "Have I told you how much I love you lately? Good grief, most guys would probably be drooling over HB and having misgivings about being married to whoever they were married to! And all you did was stare at me..lovingly when you were up there! And even when she was flat-out flirting with you - or at least, trying to flirt with you!"
When you don't know what to say, joke. "I only have eyes for you, gorgeous." With a teasing smile.
She rolled her eyes and punched my arm. I said 'ow' and snagged the hand she'd punched me with.
"That did NOT hurt," she laughed at me quietly, trying to wrestle her hand from me. I grabbed her other hand in mine when she batted at my arm, and pulled them until she was close enough to kiss. She continued a half-hearted wrestle up in an attempt to pull her hands away. I let her pull her hands away when I pulled away from her, and she shoved my chest.
"One of these days...I'm gonna grab YOUR hands first!" she said in between giggles.
I shook my head and told her she was funny, before I teased her by giving her a wet kiss on her cheek.
I put my arm up and looked at her with eyebrows raised, inviting her to sit beside me. She accepted and cuddled up tightly against my side and laid her head on my chest. My heart swelled.
"I'm so glad you're back to yourself." She whispered.
"I'm glad YOU'RE back to yourself, too," I said, pulling her just a bit closer.
Eventually, we went to sleep.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Happy Birthday Barbie...Ugh!
This morning, I woke to the familiar sound of a baby crying.
I woke Flynn up, and he rolled over to give me a kiss.
"Do you hear that?" I asked him.
"Wh-" he started to ask 'what', but I put a finger to his lips to silence him. "I hear...a baby crying? No, two. Why do they sound familiar?"
"Allie and Hallie familiar?" I asked, not noticing that my finger was still to his lips, until he kissed it and nodded. I pulled my hand away and got up. "I'm going to check stuff out. It sounds like they're up somewhere on this shelf."
He sat. "Well, be careful. I'll stay here, I guess."
I nodded, and slowly got up. After I braided my hair, Jase ran over to me. "Where're you goin', Momma?"
"Just gonna look around," I said, hefting her up onto my hip.
"Can I come?"
I hesitated, afraid she'd get hurt or something. But then I nodded. I told Flynn I was taking Jase with me, and then I turned to go.
Merida was standing on the alarm clock. "You going to check that out?" She gestured towards the direction the sound was coming from.
"Yes. Come with?" I asked.
She nodded, hefting her bow up across her shoulder.
We started to climb upwards. Merida helped me carry Jase up across the shelving unit, and we had quickly found the source of the crying.
We met a Barbie doll face-to-face when we popped up on top of the shelving unit. She was like any other Barbie doll - made up to the hilt, pretty blond hairdo, blue eyes, long eyelashes and a huge, poufy dress. I sucked in a breath when I realized Allie and Hallie had been adopted by her.
"H-hi," I stammered.
Merida slowly brought her bow down and held it in her hands, as if she might have to use it. That didn't help anything!
I came to stand beside Merida, and Jase buried her face in my shoulder when the doll turned towards us.
"Who are you?" she asked. Those blue eyes were icy and piercing.
"I'm Merida, this is Rapunzel and her daughter, Jase."
"Oh really. I've never met any of you. You look pretty weird to be one of us, though."
"We're Disney." Merida bristled, and I did, too.
"Who are YOU?" I threw her question back.
"I am the Happy Birthday Barbie. You can call me HB. Or Barbie." She looked at her fingernails.
The babies still wailed during all of this.
I almost said how original when she said to call her Barbie, but I held my tongue.
"Hey, over here!" I heard a jovial voice boom out.
I turned to see a HUGE version of me, a porcelain doll with - I sucked in another breath - NO ARMS, and another doll. The huge version of me waved and motioned me over.
I slowly wandered over with Jase.
"I can watch this cutie for you!" the huge Rapunzel smiled. She looked so beautiful and sweet.
Jase smiled at her and scrambled to get out of my arms. I let her go and she ran over to the huge Rapunzel.
She looked soooo teensy beside her that I was hesitant leaving her with them, even for just a few minutes.
"I'm Rapunzel, by the way." she smiled.
"Me too!" I laughed, shaking off my concern.
"Everyone calls me Punzie, though. Oh, and this is Saige and Tinkerbelle."
I smiled in hello and then the babies started screaming louder, if at all possible!
"You'd better go tend to those poor things. HB doesn't care for them hardly at all, and I have no clue as to why she was even allowed to adopt them!" Punzie shook her head before continuing. "I'll take care of this little one!"
I smiled politely again, before I marched over, stepped over HB, and scooped Allie and Hallie up. I handed Allie to Merida.
Merida's face dawned a huge smile when I handed Allie over. Allie almost immediately quieted. I bounced Hallie in my arms to try to get her to calm down.
"You need to take care of Allie and Hallie, you know," I said, trying to calm the hot fury that was growing in my stomach and throat.
"I do. I make sure they have a home and that's the most important. They're fine by themselves. By the way, I don't really like you just marching in and grabbing them up like you did. You'll scare them." When she looked up, she gave me a cold look.
I snapped. "You'll scare them! I know these two babies. I fostered them! They were fine for me. If you just hold them, they're fine. See?"
"I might ruin my dress, and I can't. My boyfriend will just die if I ruin it!"
"You're not even married?" I asked. Tangled Fan would never adopt out to someone who wasn't married, right?
"No. But see, I said we were married. She never pays any attention to what I do; just what you Disney princesses to! So she didn't even notice anything was amiss."
My mouth was hanging open, and Merida's face was as red as her hair.
"Y-you..." I trailed off. "You shouldn't even be allowed to adopt." I finally spat it out, and Merida sided with me.
"You don't know me." She rolled her eyes.
I raised my eyebrows, and started to lose my temper on her. But before I could loose a single insult, Merida stepped forward and reamed her out.
As she was - calmly! How did she do that?? - throwing insults at her, Flynn suddenly came up.
"Everything okay?" He glanced around, saw Jase was with Punzie, and took Hallie from my arms.
He smiled down at Hallie with such a goofy look on his face, Hallie immediately smiled at him.
And then HB noticed Flynn.
She looked up with a sly smile on her face.
"Who are you? I haven't seen you around. You're really good with kids, aren't you?"
Was she seriously flirting with my hubby? I raised my eyebrows and sidled closer to Flynn.
He was completely stone-faced and didn't get what she was doing. He put an arm around my shoulder.
"I'm Flynn, and this is my gorgeous wife Rapunzel - but you've met already, right?"
"Yeah. And that's too bad...I guess love is blind." She said.
I glanced up at Flynn's face. He was staring at me with love in his eyes - probably because he'd just gotten to introduce me to someone as his wife.
I gave him a quick smile and turned back towards HB, an idea forming in my mind.
"We could...you know, babysit them whenever you have, like, a date?" I half asked, half offered.
"I leave them up here all the time - they're okay."
My eyes widened. Didn't she know that either one of them could fall from the shelf?!
"But they'd be happier if they had.." Merida trailed off as HB held her hand up.
"Just leave, please." She said.
Flynn reluctantly put Hallie down, and Merida handed Allie over to him so he could lay her down, too.
As soon as the three of us walked away - I ran over to grab Jase and thank Punzie, making a mental note to come visit her again - anyway, as soon as we left, the babies started wailing again.
Jase looked shaken up. "HB's mean, Momma. You have to get Allie and Hallie away from her."
"How do you know that, sweetie-pie?" I asked, touching my forehead with hers.
She clammed up.
I tried to act normally, but I was concerned. We went back to our shelves, and Flynn took Jase.
"Why don't you try to talk to her, honey? She seems like she's hiding something that includes HB." I said quietly.
He rubbed a thumb over my forehead, and nodded. "Don't worry. Why don't you go talk to Rayne and Blondie? I'm sure you and Merida are about ready to start a riot." He added jokingly.
I rolled my eyes at him and thanked him before turning to gather up my friends.
We all decided to go to the chair, sit, and talk.
Merida and I narrated what happened with HB, and meanwhile, Rayne and Blondie were sitting in front of us, listening with growing anger.
When we finished, both Rayne and Blondie shared their opinions.
"I'm so mad, I don't want to call myself a Mattel doll! I don't want to be made by the same brand as what SHE was made by!" She yelled. Although it was kind of confusing, I took it as that she was really mad.
Rayne, on the other hand, was more serene - as always.
"Why don't we talk to Tangled Fan about the problem? I'm sure she'll take them away or something."
"We should talk to her now!" Merida turned towards me. Rayne stood.
"Let's raise a ruckus to get her attention! We'll get her in the room now!" Blondie said.
"Where's a plastic bag? If someone rattles it, those guinea pigs will start squealing really loud - I bet she'll come then!" Merida exclaimed, and she almost bounded off to do so, Blondie hot on her heels, but I grabbed her wrist.
"No! Just...wait, guys. Let's think this through for a second." I said quickly, and Rayne nodded.
Rayne slung her arm around my shoulders. "If we talk to her, I'm sure we'll be able to adopt them, even though she's got that 'married couples only' rule."
Merida followed suit, slung her arm around my shoulders as well, and stood on the other side. "But Rayne, I still think we should raise a ruckus so we can talk to her NOW!"
Blondie came in beside Rayne and nodded in eager agreement.
"She'll be in soon enough, I'm sure. If she isn't in by 11:30 PM, we'll raise a ruckus then." Rayne said.
"But that's FOREVER to have to wait!" Blondie wailed.
"Hey, it's just that much longer to think up what we'll do to HB!" Merida said with a mock-evil laugh.
"Okay, you're starting to scare ME!" I giggled, and Merida gave me a pretend-insulted-shove. It knocked me into Rayne, and then Rayne into Blondie, and all four of us ended up toppling over onto each other into a big mound of laughter and rustling skirts.
Once we'd gotten back up, our laughter subsided, and we continued talking about what to do. Finally, I said I should probably go back up. It was starting to draw towards night, anyway.
We all left to our respective shelves, Merida promising she'd make a ruckus if necessary. :P
When I came back, Jase had fallen asleep, obviously played out - seeing as she was sprawled all across Flynn's lap.
I smiled to myself when I realized that Flynn had nodded off as well. Must've been a tiring day, because it was only around 8PM!
I silently scooped Jase up, kissed her forehead, and laid her down behind the alarm clock. She didn't even twitch, and was soon snoring quietly - sort of quietly, anyway! ;)
When I turned back towards Flynn, I brushed the hair from his face and wondered how he could possibly sleep sitting up, without leaning against anything.
I plopped down in the wicker chair, and started thinking about today.
How lucky was I, to have a husband who wasn't distracted from his own wife, by a Barbie that was nearly perfect on the outside? I felt a sudden pang of guilt. I knew I wasn't the prettiest, and I didn't have a perfect complexion, I didn't wear makeup, and I didn't even have an extra dress! Meanwhile, most Barbies have whole wardrobes, perfect complexions, and are made to be 'drop dead gorgeous'. I chewed on my lip and wondered if Flynn minded about any of those things.
I was so lost in thought that I didn't even see Flynn wake up. I jumped when he leaned over the back of the chair to kiss my hair.
"What're you thinking about? I'm sure Tangled Fan will take care of getting the babies away from HB, so don't you worry about that."
I shook my head and smiled. "Nothing," I faltered, though. I felt kind of guilty and embarrassed to admit my other concern.
"Come on, I know that look." He gave me his crooked, cute little grin.
"It's..nothing, so don't worry about it," I said quietly.
"Then why are you worrying about it?" he asked me.
Ooh. Should've known he would do that.
I shrugged, and he took me by the hand, led me over to behind the lamp - so we weren't right beside Jase and talking - and sat down.
He patted his lap, but I sat beside him so I could look him in the eye.
"Tell me."
"I..." I trailed off, unsure of how to explain it. "It's just that..never mind. It doesn't matter, and it's dumb." I turned my face away from him.
He pulled my chin back around until I faced him again. "No matter how dumb, I promise I won't laugh and will consider your concern in all seriousness."
I sighed. "Fine. I just..after seeing HB, I feel kind of ugly. I mean, I feel bad that you're stuck with me, and not someone prettier or someone who can actually change her appearance once in awhile! And just...I dunno."
Flynn stared at me with such concern, yet love was pouring from his eyes. "Honey, don't you dare ever think you're not beautiful! You're gorgeous! And I'm not concerned with outward beauty - more like inward beauty. And HB...she wasn't even really that stunningly gorgeous! More like a catty 'mean girl', to me. And besides-"
I grabbed him up into a kiss before he could finish. When I finally pulled away, I said, "Have I told you how much I love you lately? Good grief, most guys would probably be drooling over HB and having misgivings about being married to whoever they were married to! And all you did was stare at me lovingly when we were up there. And even while she was flat-out flirting with you! Or at least, trying to flirt with you."
He gave me a teasing smile and said, "I only have eyes for you, gorgeous." I rolled my eyes and jokingly punched his arm. "Ow!" he said, playfully snagging the hand I'd punched him with.
"That did not hurt." I laughed quietly at him, trying to wrestle my hand from him.
He took my other hand in his other one and pulled me in for a kiss. I kept wrestling with him in an attempt to free my hands, and when he took his lips from mine, he finally loosened his grip and I slipped my hands away, giving him a shove.
"One... of these days, I'm gonna... grab your hands... first." I said between gales of giggles, and he shook his head.
"You're funny." He gave me a teasing, wet kiss on the cheek before putting his arm up and silently inviting me to sit beside him.
Even though it was unbearably hot this evening, I still cuddled up against him and put my head on his chest. "I'm so glad you're back to yourself." I whispered, and he said the same to me.
I'll keep you guys posted on the situation with Allie and Hallie...and with our weird antics :P But for now, it's awful hot and I need to get off the computer so Flynn can type his post =D
Monday, July 15, 2013
Flynn here...wooohoo :D
Hey everyone! Whoa. I saw the new blog banner/header thingy and at first was a bit freaked out because I thought I had the wrong blog. Oh well :D Regardless..
So this morning I got up early. Rapunzel was still soundly sleeping, at least until I couldn't help myself and gave her a kiss on the forehead.
When her eyelids fluttered open, I told her good morning and smiled down at her.
"Morning," She smiled up at me.
I told her to braid her hair and get ready. I was planning on taking her for a walk so we could talk. I didn't want our relationship to go downhill.
She started hounding after me, asking what we were going to do, and I didn't tell her. Instead, I just sat down.
She held her hands out and asked me to tell her.
"I just thought we'd go for a walk like we always used to. And I thought maybe you'd like to go explore the room a bit." I smiled at her and took her into my arms. "Wouldn't you like that? Something to do, anyway." I took her hands and held them.
"Flynn, I dunno...I just-"
"If you don't want to, it's fine," I said, slightly disappointed. "I just thought you'd enjoy it."
"I would, Flynn - so, soo much! But just not now, okay?"
I nodded and looked her in the eye before I started to tell her my concern.
She cut me off with a quick little kiss. "This won't do anything negative to our relationship, sweetie."
I nodded and sighed in relief. If she didn't think anything would happen, then nothing probably would.
Then the door cracked open, and Tangled Fan slipped through; something in her hand.
"I'm going to talk to her," Rapunzel pulled away from me quickly.
I grabbed for her hands, desperately wanting her to not fight with Tangled Fan, but she yanked away from me.
"No, Rapunzel - don't! Don't you-"
"I HAVE to! Don't you want to know what happened to them?!"
She had a point there. I silently nodded, and she whirled to face Tangled Fan.
"What did you do to Hallie and Jase? We've-"
Tangled Fan silently held her hand out towards us. Rapunzel screamed and I peered around her to see why. It was Jase!
She grabbed Jase and kissed her repeatedly. I stepped over and wrapped both of my girls up in my arms, unable to control the smile from spreading across my face.
Suddenly, though, Rapunzel shifted Jase to her other arm, used her free hand to grab my shirt collar, and she yanked me down to her level in order to give me a powerful, delighted kiss. I returned it, and when we pulled apart, we ended up having to do a photoshoot.
You can see all the pics in my wife's blog post - there are quite a few really good pictures there, if I do say so myself!
My heart was soooo impossibly full at that time, and I couldn't stop my smile.
After the photoshoot, we retreated to our shelf. Rapunzel and I took turns chatting with Jase and playing with her. She taught us both her special game she always played with herself, talked about how happy she was that we were her 'momma and daddy now' - My heart squeezed every time she said that - and she talked about various things in general - like how she couldn't wait to visit with Merida, how she wanted to play all night long, and just stuff. I teased her about how I was going to tickle her, and how she needed to help me pick on Momma - she gaily agreed to that one - and I basically did all I could to hear her little girl giggle and dimpled smile.
Eventually, though, she announced she wanted to go to bed.
"Do you want to sleep with me and daddy?" Rapunzel asked with a bright smile on her face.
"No, momma. I wanna sleep behind the alarm clock!" She exclaimed. "It's...pretty cool back there.." she yawned, cuddled up against my chest, and then fell asleep.
I met Rapunzel's eyes, smiling, and she gave me a knowing, loving smile. I carefully stood up and carried her over to her customary bedtime spot. I laid her down and let my hand rest on her tiny arm for a few seconds, dreading leaving her alone. After having a child ripped away from you in your sleep, you'd be bound to have a little bit of concerns about leaving them out of your sight!
I strode carefully back over to my wife.
"Out cold," I whispered. I held out a hand to her, and she took it.
"I don't think I could go asleep to save my life tonight!" she said. I could tell she was still pretty wound up.
I nodded and chuckled before leading her back to behind the lamp.
With a content sigh, I sat down and patted my lap, silently inviting my wife to sit on it.
Instead, she sat down beside me, gave a sigh, and threw her arms around my neck. "Aren't you relieved?"
"Yes, very much so!" I said, and she leaned her head on my shoulder. "Aren't you?"
"You have no idea!" She smiled, and I brought her chin up to give her a small kiss. When we parted, she nestled up against my side tightly.
"Aren't you a bit sad about Hallie?" I asked, remembering that I'd wanted to ask her that.
"I guess I'm a bit upset, but at the same time, I guess it's a good thing because now we can give Jase our undivided attention."
I decided to tease. "I hope you have a tiny bit of attention divided for me," I tried to give a puppy-dog pout.
She quietly laughed, before telling me that I was pathetic.
"I know I am. But you wouldn't like me any other way." I attempted to be stone-faced.
She shrugged her shoulders, attempting to act indifferent.
"I guess I could always tickle," I whispered, leaning over and acting as if I were going to tickle her.
"Don't you DARE." She half-growled at me, grabbing my hands into both of hers so I couldn't tickle her.
"That's better," I smiled down at her, referring to the fact that she was holding my hands.
She let go of them and let them drop. She rolled her eyes and flopped down onto her back. "You...you're just..."
"Pathetic?" I leaned over her to grin.
"Exactly." She reached up and we shared a sweet goodnight kiss, before I laid down beside her, and then I was totally out.
You have nooo idea how excited I am...I didn't want to go to sleep because I want to spend as much time as possible with my girls, now that I have Jase back and we both don't feel so miserable and hopeless. And I'm also glad to have my comical wife back too.
So this morning I got up early. Rapunzel was still soundly sleeping, at least until I couldn't help myself and gave her a kiss on the forehead.
When her eyelids fluttered open, I told her good morning and smiled down at her.
"Morning," She smiled up at me.
I told her to braid her hair and get ready. I was planning on taking her for a walk so we could talk. I didn't want our relationship to go downhill.
She started hounding after me, asking what we were going to do, and I didn't tell her. Instead, I just sat down.
She held her hands out and asked me to tell her.
"I just thought we'd go for a walk like we always used to. And I thought maybe you'd like to go explore the room a bit." I smiled at her and took her into my arms. "Wouldn't you like that? Something to do, anyway." I took her hands and held them.
"Flynn, I dunno...I just-"
"If you don't want to, it's fine," I said, slightly disappointed. "I just thought you'd enjoy it."
"I would, Flynn - so, soo much! But just not now, okay?"
I nodded and looked her in the eye before I started to tell her my concern.
She cut me off with a quick little kiss. "This won't do anything negative to our relationship, sweetie."
I nodded and sighed in relief. If she didn't think anything would happen, then nothing probably would.
Then the door cracked open, and Tangled Fan slipped through; something in her hand.
"I'm going to talk to her," Rapunzel pulled away from me quickly.
I grabbed for her hands, desperately wanting her to not fight with Tangled Fan, but she yanked away from me.
"No, Rapunzel - don't! Don't you-"
"I HAVE to! Don't you want to know what happened to them?!"
She had a point there. I silently nodded, and she whirled to face Tangled Fan.
"What did you do to Hallie and Jase? We've-"
Tangled Fan silently held her hand out towards us. Rapunzel screamed and I peered around her to see why. It was Jase!
She grabbed Jase and kissed her repeatedly. I stepped over and wrapped both of my girls up in my arms, unable to control the smile from spreading across my face.
Suddenly, though, Rapunzel shifted Jase to her other arm, used her free hand to grab my shirt collar, and she yanked me down to her level in order to give me a powerful, delighted kiss. I returned it, and when we pulled apart, we ended up having to do a photoshoot.
You can see all the pics in my wife's blog post - there are quite a few really good pictures there, if I do say so myself!
My heart was soooo impossibly full at that time, and I couldn't stop my smile.
After the photoshoot, we retreated to our shelf. Rapunzel and I took turns chatting with Jase and playing with her. She taught us both her special game she always played with herself, talked about how happy she was that we were her 'momma and daddy now' - My heart squeezed every time she said that - and she talked about various things in general - like how she couldn't wait to visit with Merida, how she wanted to play all night long, and just stuff. I teased her about how I was going to tickle her, and how she needed to help me pick on Momma - she gaily agreed to that one - and I basically did all I could to hear her little girl giggle and dimpled smile.
Eventually, though, she announced she wanted to go to bed.
"Do you want to sleep with me and daddy?" Rapunzel asked with a bright smile on her face.
"No, momma. I wanna sleep behind the alarm clock!" She exclaimed. "It's...pretty cool back there.." she yawned, cuddled up against my chest, and then fell asleep.
I met Rapunzel's eyes, smiling, and she gave me a knowing, loving smile. I carefully stood up and carried her over to her customary bedtime spot. I laid her down and let my hand rest on her tiny arm for a few seconds, dreading leaving her alone. After having a child ripped away from you in your sleep, you'd be bound to have a little bit of concerns about leaving them out of your sight!
I strode carefully back over to my wife.
"Out cold," I whispered. I held out a hand to her, and she took it.
"I don't think I could go asleep to save my life tonight!" she said. I could tell she was still pretty wound up.
I nodded and chuckled before leading her back to behind the lamp.
With a content sigh, I sat down and patted my lap, silently inviting my wife to sit on it.
Instead, she sat down beside me, gave a sigh, and threw her arms around my neck. "Aren't you relieved?"
"Yes, very much so!" I said, and she leaned her head on my shoulder. "Aren't you?"
"You have no idea!" She smiled, and I brought her chin up to give her a small kiss. When we parted, she nestled up against my side tightly.
"Aren't you a bit sad about Hallie?" I asked, remembering that I'd wanted to ask her that.
"I guess I'm a bit upset, but at the same time, I guess it's a good thing because now we can give Jase our undivided attention."
I decided to tease. "I hope you have a tiny bit of attention divided for me," I tried to give a puppy-dog pout.
She quietly laughed, before telling me that I was pathetic.
"I know I am. But you wouldn't like me any other way." I attempted to be stone-faced.
She shrugged her shoulders, attempting to act indifferent.
"I guess I could always tickle," I whispered, leaning over and acting as if I were going to tickle her.
"Don't you DARE." She half-growled at me, grabbing my hands into both of hers so I couldn't tickle her.
"That's better," I smiled down at her, referring to the fact that she was holding my hands.
She let go of them and let them drop. She rolled her eyes and flopped down onto her back. "You...you're just..."
"Pathetic?" I leaned over her to grin.
"Exactly." She reached up and we shared a sweet goodnight kiss, before I laid down beside her, and then I was totally out.
You have nooo idea how excited I am...I didn't want to go to sleep because I want to spend as much time as possible with my girls, now that I have Jase back and we both don't feel so miserable and hopeless. And I'm also glad to have my comical wife back too.
FINALLY!!!!!!!
Hi everyone!!
Like my new header I made? I'm not sure if I like it or not yet...probably just need to get used to it. (: Please let me know your thoughts or ideas!!
Anyway.
This morning, Flynn woke me up bright and early with a kiss on the forehead.
"Good morning, beautiful," he smiled down at me with such gentleness.
I smiled back at him, momentarily forgetting all troubles. "Morning,"
"Why don't you braid your hair and get ready? We're gonna do something today."
"Do what?" I asked, sitting up and taking the hand he offered.
He didn't answer me, so I followed him, braiding my hair and demanding an answer.
Like my new header I made? I'm not sure if I like it or not yet...probably just need to get used to it. (: Please let me know your thoughts or ideas!!
Anyway.
This morning, Flynn woke me up bright and early with a kiss on the forehead.
"Good morning, beautiful," he smiled down at me with such gentleness.
I smiled back at him, momentarily forgetting all troubles. "Morning,"
"Why don't you braid your hair and get ready? We're gonna do something today."
"Do what?" I asked, sitting up and taking the hand he offered.
He didn't answer me, so I followed him, braiding my hair and demanding an answer.
He just sat down. I yanked my ribbon's bow tight and held my hands out. "Tell me, please!"
"I just thought we'd go for a walk like we always used to. And I thought maybe you'd like to go explore the room a bit."
He offered up a smile, stood, and took me comfortably into his arms.
"Wouldn't you like that?" he asked. "Something to do, anyway."
He took both my hands up gently and held them.
I had my reservations about doing anything. I didn't feel like it, for one, because of the fact that all my kids were gone! "Flynn, I dunno...I just.."
"If you don't want to, it's fine," he said, his smile fading. "I just thought you'd enjoy it.."
"I would, Flynn - so, so much! But just not now, okay?"
He looked at me and nodded. "I understand. I'm just trying to keep our relationship from falling apart, becau-"
I reached up to kiss him in order to cut him off. "This won't do anything negative to our relationship, sweetie."
He nodded, looking relieved.
Then, the door cracked open. Tangled Fan slipped through the door, something tightly enclosed in her hand.
"I'm going to talk to her!" I said, pulling away from him. He grabbed one of my hands as quickly as I'd pulled them away.
"No, Rapunzel - don't! Don't you-"
I yanked away from him. "I HAVE to! Don't you want to know what happened to them?"
He silently nodded, and I turned away from him to face Tangled Fan.
"What did you do to Hallie and Jase? We've-"
She silently held out her hand.
Jase was sitting on it.
I screamed in delight, ran over, grabbed Jase up into my arms, and showered her face with kisses. Flynn came over and wrapped us both tightly in his arms, smiling ear to ear.
Excitement zinged up and down my spine, and the feeling of joy was just unexplainable!
I didn't know what else to do, so I shifted Jase to my other arm.
And then I used my other hand to pull Flynn down to my level so I could grab him into a delighted kiss.
He returned it and my knees almost gave out and buckled from the joy of having my baby girl back!
So then, of course...we had to do a photoshoot. This would be my second photoshoot today..Tangled Fan did part of a review series on her doll blog ,and I had to participate in it. Annnywayyy...here are our favorites from both the photoshoots! (:
This one is probably my favorite (:
Us four girls (:
I just love every one of the pictures of Merida. She's soo pretty! I wish I was as stunning as she is - she won't let me tell her she's pretty, though. I guess she doesn't think she is! But look at that face and tell me she isn't pretty...!
There were only two pictures of Rayne, and this was the best one.
After our photoshoot, we were left to our own devices. Flynn and I took turns holding and playing with Jase.
I figured that Jase would tell us all about her ordeal being stuffed in a bag, doomed for Goodwill...but she didn't.
She just babbled constantly and said about how excited she was that we were her momma and daddy. I just absolutely LOVE watching Flynn with her. He's so funny and gentle with her - something you would never expect from a guy who has HUGE hands and a cocky grin on his face. And that's why I love him..well, one reason why anyway - you've probably heard 110-zillion other reasons on here since I started the blog :P
Eventually, Jase announced she was tired and wanted to go to bed. I personally wanted to let her sleep with me and Flynn, but when I let her consider the idea, she said she wanted to sleep behind the alarm clock as she had always done.
And then she sighed and cuddled up to Flynn's chest, and fell asleep instantly.
Flynn met my eyes with a smile, and I smiled back. He carefully stood up and carried her over, set her down, and let his hand rest on her arm a few seconds before he came back over to me.
"Out cold," he whispered.
I nodded, taking the hand he offered. Standing, I noticed it was almost 11 PM. "I don't think I could go asleep to save my life tonight!" I said. I was feeling pretty giddy yet - wouldn't you be?! :D
He chuckled, nodding, and I let myself be led over to behind the lamp. He sat down and patted his lap, but I sat down beside him instead.
I dramatically threw my arms around his neck with a sigh. "Aren't you relieved?"
"Yes, very much so," he said, and I leaned my head on his shoulder. "Aren't you?"
"You have no idea." I smiled, and he pulled my chin up so we could kiss.
When we pulled apart, I nestled up against him as much as I could.
"Aren't you a bit sad about Hallie?"
I thought for a minute. "I guess I'm a bit upset, but at the same time, I guess it's a good thing, because now we can give Jase our undivided attention."
"I hope you have a tiny bit of your attention divided for me," Flynn joked, giving me a puppy-dog pout.
I laughed quietly. "You are seriously pathetic."
"I know I am. But you wouldn't like me any other way."
I shrugged as if I were indifferent on the matter, and he threatened to tickle.
"Don't you dare," I grumbled, grabbing both of his hands so he couldn't tickle me.
"That's better," he smiled down at me. I let go of his hands and rolled my eyes before flopping down onto my back.
"You..you're just.."
"Pathetic?" He leaned over with a teasing look in his eye.
"Exactly." I reached up to give him a goodnight kiss and he slid down beside me.
And then I guess I was out pretty quickly, after that. So much for not being able to sleep to save my life :P
You have no clue how relieved I am to have Jase back...it's like the weight of the world has been lifted from my little plastic shoulders :P Mine and Flynn's. I'm soooooooooo glad to have my Jase back, and I'm glad to have my silly Flynn back. (:
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Sunday, July 14, 2013
Flynn here - update
Hi everyone -
We STILL don't know what's going on with the kids. Tangled Fan's hardly been around. When she is around, though, I get so mad I can hardly stand myself!
I've also kind of been getting angry with myself, too. To watch my wonderful, sweet, carefree wife just wilt underneath the pressure of the whole situation, was just beyond horrible. I knew that if I had not brought up the idea of fostering, we BOTH wouldn't be going through this, let alone her! I've been trying to be strong, but it's hard.
So today, when Rapunzel left me alone for a good while, to go talk with Merida and the gang, I finally broke down. The still quietness was deafening, and I just collapsed into the wicker chair and bawled like a baby, I am ashamed to admit. You see, I'm used to being a tough guy that doesn't cry. And I can't be that guy right now. And on top of all that, I can't be the strong husband my wife needs!
Regardless.
I hardly even noticed Rapunzel when she got back from her visit with Merida, but she for sure noticed me. Unfortunately. And that upset me even more!
"Are you alright?" She asked me. I jumped up when I saw her, swallowing hard to try to collect my thoughts.
"Uh, yeah - everything's fine." I fibbed...yes.. I fibbed.
Rapunzel didn't believe me though. "I know better than that. Tell me - it's good to let it all out, trust me!" She pried.
"No, it's-"
"You know, we're husband and wife! You are supposed to tell me all your troubles."
I looked down to avoid my wife's searching eyes. "I don't see the need to tell you about it when you know, too." A tear dripped off of my nose - I was afraid to tell her why I was mad at myself.
She grabbed me into a tight hug, and that's when I totally just lost it. Here's this tiny, thin girl that's almost a head shorter than me, and she's trying to comfort me. There's just something wrong with that - I should be comforting HER! I buried my head in her shoulder and started sobbing hard. I hadn't cried hard since Friday. She stood and kept her hold on me until I finished, pulled my head up, and looked at her.
Finally, I partially spilled what the problem was.
She bit her lip and put a small hand on my cheek. "I know, honey; I know. You don't have to be the big tough guy right now - it's fine to let a few tears fall once in awhile."
"But what about you? You need someone stronger than this to help YOU get through it-"
She broke me off. "Flynn, I didn't marry you because you were tough. It's perfectly natural to be upset right now - you would seem really weird if you weren't sad. And you've helped me already - just the fact that I know you're here with me? That's a comfort, and-"
I cut her off, almost accidentally blurting the rest of my concerns.
After that, I was just mad at myself and walked away from her. My thoughts were racing and I could hardly hear her yelling at me.
Why did I even ever drag her into this? And now I was really messing up our relationship. We hadn't really talked much since Friday - we'd just sat around. Why had I messed this up?
I was just so mad at myself, and I know I shouldn't have been.
"...You'd best turn around and calm down. Getting-"
I thought about and realized that by walking away, I wasn't doing anything good for the relationship, either.
I froze, turned on my heel, and grabbed her up into a kiss. She jumped in surprise, and I think I almost knocked her over with my suddenness. I put my arms around her and held her as closely as I could - I didn't want to let go of her. The past couple of days, I'd been so on edge about waking up someday and finding HER gone, too!
Finally, I took my lips from hers, but I still held her closely.
"What in the world? I don't - I mean..." She fumbled, and I could tell she was horribly confused.
"Just thank you for being you. And not blaming me for anything when I deserve blame-"
She cut me off. "Excuse me, but you do not deserve to be blamed for this. It was Tangled Fa-"
I didn't want to get into it again, so I brushed my lips with hers, long enough to silence her.
"You're terrible, you know that? I'm trying to say something, something possibly important, and all you want to do is KISS me?"
I finally saw some of her silly spunk, and I smiled at her, deciding to make this moment of sudden silliness a bit longer.
"Well, what other way could I get you to be quiet? Usually, you're like a dog with a bone - once you have something, you don't drop it till it's all said and done. But hey, it worked - didn't it?"
She fumbled around for the rest of the sentence in order to prove me wrong, and she failed.
I tried to suppress a laugh, and grinned at her.
"You're bad, but I love you anyway." She gave me a small, sweet smile, full of innocence. I also noticed how happy she seemed to be, now that I was...teasing her? Uh, okay...but hey, if it makes my girl happy, I'll tease her to no end!
I gave her another quick little kiss.
"You're a little over the top now, hon."
"Well, I haven't kissed you at all since Thursday, so I need to catch up!" I joked with an attempt at an innocent face.
She rolled her eyes, but then at the mention of Thursday, she immediately sobered. Her lovely smile faded again, and her eyes clouded over with grief again.
My own smile faded, and I felt bad for bringing it up.
I brought her chin up and she looked at me. "I know what you're thinking...please stop."
I kissed her again, and she pressed into the kiss, almost like she desperately needed something to distract her.
I finally pulled away, and she took in a shuddery breath that made my heart twinge with sadness.
"Tomorrow, I WILL confront Tangled Fan. She'll give me the scoop on this whole situation, or at least she'd better!"
I was afraid she'd end up getting tossed away if Tangled Fan got too mad or something. I didn't see Tangled Fan doing that, but you never know.
"It's not worth getting into a fight over," I warned.
"You know what? If she wants to toss me out in the Dumpster because I want my kids back, she can!" She said with such bitterness, I was taken aback slightly.
I desperately wanted to distract her again. I needed that funny little moment of happiness back.
"See...I told you. Like a dog with a bone." I winked at her, and she gave me a slightly flustered little smile. She quieted down after that, and I rubbed my hand on her back; she leaned up against me. I decided that even if we didn't get the girls back, that I should be thankful for my sweet wife. And from now on, I was going to do anything in my power to seem unconcerned and to keep HER unconcerned, too. Wish me luck, guys - it's gonna take a LOT to get her to stop worrying.
We STILL don't know what's going on with the kids. Tangled Fan's hardly been around. When she is around, though, I get so mad I can hardly stand myself!
I've also kind of been getting angry with myself, too. To watch my wonderful, sweet, carefree wife just wilt underneath the pressure of the whole situation, was just beyond horrible. I knew that if I had not brought up the idea of fostering, we BOTH wouldn't be going through this, let alone her! I've been trying to be strong, but it's hard.
So today, when Rapunzel left me alone for a good while, to go talk with Merida and the gang, I finally broke down. The still quietness was deafening, and I just collapsed into the wicker chair and bawled like a baby, I am ashamed to admit. You see, I'm used to being a tough guy that doesn't cry. And I can't be that guy right now. And on top of all that, I can't be the strong husband my wife needs!
Regardless.
I hardly even noticed Rapunzel when she got back from her visit with Merida, but she for sure noticed me. Unfortunately. And that upset me even more!
"Are you alright?" She asked me. I jumped up when I saw her, swallowing hard to try to collect my thoughts.
"Uh, yeah - everything's fine." I fibbed...yes.. I fibbed.
Rapunzel didn't believe me though. "I know better than that. Tell me - it's good to let it all out, trust me!" She pried.
"No, it's-"
"You know, we're husband and wife! You are supposed to tell me all your troubles."
I looked down to avoid my wife's searching eyes. "I don't see the need to tell you about it when you know, too." A tear dripped off of my nose - I was afraid to tell her why I was mad at myself.
She grabbed me into a tight hug, and that's when I totally just lost it. Here's this tiny, thin girl that's almost a head shorter than me, and she's trying to comfort me. There's just something wrong with that - I should be comforting HER! I buried my head in her shoulder and started sobbing hard. I hadn't cried hard since Friday. She stood and kept her hold on me until I finished, pulled my head up, and looked at her.
Finally, I partially spilled what the problem was.
She bit her lip and put a small hand on my cheek. "I know, honey; I know. You don't have to be the big tough guy right now - it's fine to let a few tears fall once in awhile."
"But what about you? You need someone stronger than this to help YOU get through it-"
She broke me off. "Flynn, I didn't marry you because you were tough. It's perfectly natural to be upset right now - you would seem really weird if you weren't sad. And you've helped me already - just the fact that I know you're here with me? That's a comfort, and-"
I cut her off, almost accidentally blurting the rest of my concerns.
After that, I was just mad at myself and walked away from her. My thoughts were racing and I could hardly hear her yelling at me.
Why did I even ever drag her into this? And now I was really messing up our relationship. We hadn't really talked much since Friday - we'd just sat around. Why had I messed this up?
I was just so mad at myself, and I know I shouldn't have been.
"...You'd best turn around and calm down. Getting-"
I thought about and realized that by walking away, I wasn't doing anything good for the relationship, either.
I froze, turned on my heel, and grabbed her up into a kiss. She jumped in surprise, and I think I almost knocked her over with my suddenness. I put my arms around her and held her as closely as I could - I didn't want to let go of her. The past couple of days, I'd been so on edge about waking up someday and finding HER gone, too!
Finally, I took my lips from hers, but I still held her closely.
"What in the world? I don't - I mean..." She fumbled, and I could tell she was horribly confused.
"Just thank you for being you. And not blaming me for anything when I deserve blame-"
She cut me off. "Excuse me, but you do not deserve to be blamed for this. It was Tangled Fa-"
I didn't want to get into it again, so I brushed my lips with hers, long enough to silence her.
"You're terrible, you know that? I'm trying to say something, something possibly important, and all you want to do is KISS me?"
I finally saw some of her silly spunk, and I smiled at her, deciding to make this moment of sudden silliness a bit longer.
"Well, what other way could I get you to be quiet? Usually, you're like a dog with a bone - once you have something, you don't drop it till it's all said and done. But hey, it worked - didn't it?"
She fumbled around for the rest of the sentence in order to prove me wrong, and she failed.
I tried to suppress a laugh, and grinned at her.
"You're bad, but I love you anyway." She gave me a small, sweet smile, full of innocence. I also noticed how happy she seemed to be, now that I was...teasing her? Uh, okay...but hey, if it makes my girl happy, I'll tease her to no end!
I gave her another quick little kiss.
"You're a little over the top now, hon."
"Well, I haven't kissed you at all since Thursday, so I need to catch up!" I joked with an attempt at an innocent face.
She rolled her eyes, but then at the mention of Thursday, she immediately sobered. Her lovely smile faded again, and her eyes clouded over with grief again.
My own smile faded, and I felt bad for bringing it up.
I brought her chin up and she looked at me. "I know what you're thinking...please stop."
I kissed her again, and she pressed into the kiss, almost like she desperately needed something to distract her.
I finally pulled away, and she took in a shuddery breath that made my heart twinge with sadness.
"Tomorrow, I WILL confront Tangled Fan. She'll give me the scoop on this whole situation, or at least she'd better!"
I was afraid she'd end up getting tossed away if Tangled Fan got too mad or something. I didn't see Tangled Fan doing that, but you never know.
"It's not worth getting into a fight over," I warned.
"You know what? If she wants to toss me out in the Dumpster because I want my kids back, she can!" She said with such bitterness, I was taken aback slightly.
I desperately wanted to distract her again. I needed that funny little moment of happiness back.
"See...I told you. Like a dog with a bone." I winked at her, and she gave me a slightly flustered little smile. She quieted down after that, and I rubbed my hand on her back; she leaned up against me. I decided that even if we didn't get the girls back, that I should be thankful for my sweet wife. And from now on, I was going to do anything in my power to seem unconcerned and to keep HER unconcerned, too. Wish me luck, guys - it's gonna take a LOT to get her to stop worrying.
Quick Update...
Hey everyone...
Haven't seen Tangled Fan much lately, and when she does breeze through, it's to do something, such as clean guinea pig cages (we share the room with her AND her guinea pigs) or put clothes away, or whatever. I want to stop her and demand to know what's going on, but I don't want to seem horribly rude.
At this point, I'm READY to be rude! Flynn's face gets all red and twisted up when he sees Tangled Fan entering the room, so I know he's about ready to snap.
It's been pretty hard on us, as you can imagine. Having your kids only for one week, and then ripped away from you, and one tossed away to Goodwill?? Um, no.
I heard her scrummaging around in bags yesterday, so I'm so hoping she finds the Goodwill bag...and then we could at least have Jase back with us...I can only imagine what's going through all those poor kids' heads right now :(
Today I left Flynn have some alone time and I went up to see Merida, Rayne, and Blondie.
They were really bummed out that there were no updates. I told Merida that Allie had been adopted out to someone else already, and her face just fell. I hated telling my best friend that news! She'd been sooo attached to Allie. Rayne was trying to be upbeat and commented that maybe things would turn out okay and everyone would be brought back to us, and I tried to smile thanks, but it's like my face is made out of cement - I couldn't move my lips to smile no matter what! Blondie was very quiet, and I saw a few tears dripping off of her cheeks. She'd only met the girls once or twice, but she'd really liked Janet, I think.
When I left the shelf for our shelf, I hugged all three of them and thanked them for being there for me and Flynn.
When I got back, Flynn's face was tear-streaked.
"Are you alright?" I asked him. He was collapsed into the wicker chair.
When he noticed me, he jumped up and swallowed. "Uh, yeah. Everything's fine."
"I know better than that. Tell me. It's good to let it all out, trust me!" I pried. He started to refuse. "You know, we're husband and wife! You are supposed to tell me all your troubles."
"I don't see the need to tell you about it when you know, too." He mumbled, looking down as a tear dripped from his nose.
My heart ached and I strode over to him and grabbed him into a tight hug.
He buried his face in my shoulder and his whole body started jerking with the sobs he'd obviously held in since Friday. I just stood and let him cry. When he was ready, he pulled his head away from my shoulder and looked down at me.
"I'm just so..so used to being this big, tough guy that isn't bothered by anything, and isn't easily upset...and if something bad happens, I can usually find a silver lining. But with..with this? I can't. And I'm not used to that. And I want my girls-OUR girls! I want them back in our arms so badly."
I bit my lip and pushed away the tears threatening to sting my eyes. I put a hand on his cheek. "I know, honey. I know. You don't have to be the big tough guy right now - it's fine to let a few tears fall once in awhile."
"But what about you? You need someone stronger than this to help YOU get through it-"
"Flynn, I didn't marry you because you were tough. It's perfectly natural to be upset right now - you would seem really weird if you weren't sad. And you've helped me already. Just the fact that I know you're here with me? That's a comfort, and-"
"But you wouldn't be going through this if I hadn't've suggested it!" He blurted.
He pulled away from me and walked off. I followed after him.
"Flynn, calm down. Flynn! Listen to me. FLYNN!" I finally yelled, because he wasn't listening. I guess he was just so upset with himself that he couldn't stop and turn around to listen to me. He still didn't. "It was my decision too! It's not your fault! Now you'd best turn around and calm down. Getting this worked up isn't good for-"
Whilst I was following him and chewing him out for being so hard on himself, he stopped, turned around, and grabbed me into a kiss, almost knocking me over and interrupting my sentence.
I could hardly remember the last time we'd kissed - we'd been too upset and our relationship, as I now knew, had suffered a blow. My head spun and I couldn't think straight - what was he doing, anyway? First he was crying, then he was mad at himself, and now he was kissing me with such passion that I almost started crying too! Talk about confusing - and men think WE'RE confusing!
Finally, he pulled away from me, but he still held me close in his arms.
"What in the world...? I don't...I mean.." I fumbled for what I wanted to say, without sounding rude or unappreciative or anything.
"Just thank you for being you. And not blaming me for anything when I deserve blame-"
"Excuse me, but you do NOT deserve to be blamed for this - it was Tangled Fa-" He kissed me again, but just long enough to cut me off from my sentence. "You're terrible, you know that? I'm trying to say something, something possibly important, and all you want to do is kiss me?!"
It wasn't a reprimand, but I was trying to get a smile out of him...and it worked.
"Well, what other way could I get you to be quiet? Usually, you're like a dog with a bone - once you have something, you don't drop it till it's all said and done. But hey, it worked - didn't it?"
"It was Tangled Fan that did everything, so..." I tried to finish what I'd been wanting to say. "So, um..."
His eyes laughed for the first time since Thursday, and he gave me an 'I told you so' grin.
"You're bad. But I love you anyway." I offered a small smile, glad to have a glimmer of my old Flynn back. Who knew that someone could miss being teased so much?
He gave me another quick kiss and then I told him he was being a little over-the-top.
"Well, I haven't kissed you at all since Thursday, so I need to catch up!" He joked.
I rolled my eyes and I sobered when I thought about Thursday. We'd been a perfect little - okay, not so little - family then. It was amazing how much could change in a matter of hours. As I was thinking of this, Flynn gently brought my chin up so I was looking at him. It was also amazing how quickly that dance in his eye had vanished.
"I know what you're thinking. Please stop," he kissed me and I leaned into him.
My heart ached for a moment and I wished I hadn't've thought of that. It had been so nice to be back to a sense of normality :/
I took in a deep, shuddery breath, and said to him, "Tomorrow, I WILL confront Tangled Fan. She'll give me the scoop on this whole situation, or at least she'd better!"
"It's not worth getting into a fight over."
"You know what? If she wants to toss me out in the Dumpster because I want my KIDS back, she can!" I said bitterly.
"See..I told you - like a dog with a bone." He winked at me, and I could tell he was trying to get me off the subject. So I quieted down.
And that's basically what we're at right now. Will keep you guys updated as necessary. Not sure if Flynn will be doing a post with his side or not, you'll have to wait and see - I hope he does though, because it seems to give him something else to think about!
Haven't seen Tangled Fan much lately, and when she does breeze through, it's to do something, such as clean guinea pig cages (we share the room with her AND her guinea pigs) or put clothes away, or whatever. I want to stop her and demand to know what's going on, but I don't want to seem horribly rude.
At this point, I'm READY to be rude! Flynn's face gets all red and twisted up when he sees Tangled Fan entering the room, so I know he's about ready to snap.
It's been pretty hard on us, as you can imagine. Having your kids only for one week, and then ripped away from you, and one tossed away to Goodwill?? Um, no.
I heard her scrummaging around in bags yesterday, so I'm so hoping she finds the Goodwill bag...and then we could at least have Jase back with us...I can only imagine what's going through all those poor kids' heads right now :(
Today I left Flynn have some alone time and I went up to see Merida, Rayne, and Blondie.
They were really bummed out that there were no updates. I told Merida that Allie had been adopted out to someone else already, and her face just fell. I hated telling my best friend that news! She'd been sooo attached to Allie. Rayne was trying to be upbeat and commented that maybe things would turn out okay and everyone would be brought back to us, and I tried to smile thanks, but it's like my face is made out of cement - I couldn't move my lips to smile no matter what! Blondie was very quiet, and I saw a few tears dripping off of her cheeks. She'd only met the girls once or twice, but she'd really liked Janet, I think.
When I left the shelf for our shelf, I hugged all three of them and thanked them for being there for me and Flynn.
When I got back, Flynn's face was tear-streaked.
"Are you alright?" I asked him. He was collapsed into the wicker chair.
When he noticed me, he jumped up and swallowed. "Uh, yeah. Everything's fine."
"I know better than that. Tell me. It's good to let it all out, trust me!" I pried. He started to refuse. "You know, we're husband and wife! You are supposed to tell me all your troubles."
"I don't see the need to tell you about it when you know, too." He mumbled, looking down as a tear dripped from his nose.
My heart ached and I strode over to him and grabbed him into a tight hug.
He buried his face in my shoulder and his whole body started jerking with the sobs he'd obviously held in since Friday. I just stood and let him cry. When he was ready, he pulled his head away from my shoulder and looked down at me.
"I'm just so..so used to being this big, tough guy that isn't bothered by anything, and isn't easily upset...and if something bad happens, I can usually find a silver lining. But with..with this? I can't. And I'm not used to that. And I want my girls-OUR girls! I want them back in our arms so badly."
I bit my lip and pushed away the tears threatening to sting my eyes. I put a hand on his cheek. "I know, honey. I know. You don't have to be the big tough guy right now - it's fine to let a few tears fall once in awhile."
"But what about you? You need someone stronger than this to help YOU get through it-"
"Flynn, I didn't marry you because you were tough. It's perfectly natural to be upset right now - you would seem really weird if you weren't sad. And you've helped me already. Just the fact that I know you're here with me? That's a comfort, and-"
"But you wouldn't be going through this if I hadn't've suggested it!" He blurted.
He pulled away from me and walked off. I followed after him.
"Flynn, calm down. Flynn! Listen to me. FLYNN!" I finally yelled, because he wasn't listening. I guess he was just so upset with himself that he couldn't stop and turn around to listen to me. He still didn't. "It was my decision too! It's not your fault! Now you'd best turn around and calm down. Getting this worked up isn't good for-"
Whilst I was following him and chewing him out for being so hard on himself, he stopped, turned around, and grabbed me into a kiss, almost knocking me over and interrupting my sentence.
I could hardly remember the last time we'd kissed - we'd been too upset and our relationship, as I now knew, had suffered a blow. My head spun and I couldn't think straight - what was he doing, anyway? First he was crying, then he was mad at himself, and now he was kissing me with such passion that I almost started crying too! Talk about confusing - and men think WE'RE confusing!
Finally, he pulled away from me, but he still held me close in his arms.
"What in the world...? I don't...I mean.." I fumbled for what I wanted to say, without sounding rude or unappreciative or anything.
"Just thank you for being you. And not blaming me for anything when I deserve blame-"
"Excuse me, but you do NOT deserve to be blamed for this - it was Tangled Fa-" He kissed me again, but just long enough to cut me off from my sentence. "You're terrible, you know that? I'm trying to say something, something possibly important, and all you want to do is kiss me?!"
It wasn't a reprimand, but I was trying to get a smile out of him...and it worked.
"Well, what other way could I get you to be quiet? Usually, you're like a dog with a bone - once you have something, you don't drop it till it's all said and done. But hey, it worked - didn't it?"
"It was Tangled Fan that did everything, so..." I tried to finish what I'd been wanting to say. "So, um..."
His eyes laughed for the first time since Thursday, and he gave me an 'I told you so' grin.
"You're bad. But I love you anyway." I offered a small smile, glad to have a glimmer of my old Flynn back. Who knew that someone could miss being teased so much?
He gave me another quick kiss and then I told him he was being a little over-the-top.
"Well, I haven't kissed you at all since Thursday, so I need to catch up!" He joked.
I rolled my eyes and I sobered when I thought about Thursday. We'd been a perfect little - okay, not so little - family then. It was amazing how much could change in a matter of hours. As I was thinking of this, Flynn gently brought my chin up so I was looking at him. It was also amazing how quickly that dance in his eye had vanished.
"I know what you're thinking. Please stop," he kissed me and I leaned into him.
My heart ached for a moment and I wished I hadn't've thought of that. It had been so nice to be back to a sense of normality :/
I took in a deep, shuddery breath, and said to him, "Tomorrow, I WILL confront Tangled Fan. She'll give me the scoop on this whole situation, or at least she'd better!"
"It's not worth getting into a fight over."
"You know what? If she wants to toss me out in the Dumpster because I want my KIDS back, she can!" I said bitterly.
"See..I told you - like a dog with a bone." He winked at me, and I could tell he was trying to get me off the subject. So I quieted down.
And that's basically what we're at right now. Will keep you guys updated as necessary. Not sure if Flynn will be doing a post with his side or not, you'll have to wait and see - I hope he does though, because it seems to give him something else to think about!
Friday, July 12, 2013
Flynn here..can you say worst day ever??
Hey guys...sorry if I seem a bit mean, but I need to blow off some steam.
So this morning, I was awakened by Rapunzel, who was frantically shaking my arm.
It ends up that Jase, Allie, Janet, and Hallie were all gone.
We searched for them for close to two hours. Then, Rapunzel, Merida, and Rayne went off to search the 18 inchers' dresser.
I paced along the deck and worried for awhile. But then I decided to keep searching for awhile.
It took those three several hours until they came back, and by then, I was back pacing the deck.
I saw my wife coming up the deck, and I stood still, trying to suppress my hopefulness.
But as she neared, I saw her red-rimmed eyes and she was biting her lip. I almost lost it, and my face crumpled. I did manage, however, to keep from bawling.
After that, Tangled Fan came walking into the room, waltzing through as normally as ever. Told Rapunzel that Janet and Allie were adopted, Hallie was pending, and Jase had been carelessly tossed into the Goodwill bag.
Rapunzel looked like her knees just crumpled underneath her. She buried her face into her knees and sobbed.
I walked over to her slowly, gathering my thoughts and composure. She needed me right now. Needed me not to be a complete mess.
"I'm so...sorry...I-I should've told her we wanted to adopt them. And n-now they're gggone!" She sobbed, and I bent to gather her in my arms.
"Shh. It's okay." I reassured her further, carried her to the shelf, sat down, and held her on my lap.
She finally began crying. Sobs wracked her body and I wondered if she could actually hurt herself from crying so hard. I held her close and rocked back and forth. I really struggled to keep from crying..but then I broke down and let a few tears loose.
She pulled away from me and looked at me, and I didn't meet her eyes. She put her tiny hand on mine. "I'm so sorry. I c-can't believe...I can't-" She started crying again, and I pulled her back in to my chest.
I tried to reassure her that everything happened for a reason, and that everything probably would turn out okay.
She pulled away and looked at me. I tried to muster a brave smile, but it was shaky. I wondered if Tangled Fan would've done this to me when Rapunzel's arm was messed up - if she would've just tossed her away carelessly, if I hadn't've asked her to marry me. The very thought made me almost cry more.
Eventually, she calmed down and wiped her cheeks. I cupped her cheeks with my hands.
"Everything will be okay - don't worry. You'll see."
"But what if everything ISN'T okay?" She stared at me, demanding an answer.
"It just will be." I pulled her close for a tight hug, and glanced at the alarm clock. It was coming close to 9. "Might as well get some sleep now."
I started to go to bed, and she snorted. "Sleep? Right."
I'd been trying to hard to avoid snapping at her pessimism and sarcasm, but I'd had enough. Before I could catch myself, I wheeled on her. "Your attitude won't help the situation, miss! I miss them too, and I'm trying to be here for you, but you're making it awfully hard!"
My wife threw it right back into my face. "Then don't be! Don't worry about little old me, who has an ATTITUDE! Nobody in our situation would be a little bit pessimistic, anyway!"
That wasn't what I'd said, was it? "I didn't say -"
But she wasn't done. "And how on earth do you expect me to NOT be mad or upset or anything? My children just got taken away from me!"
She started to turn away. I told her to wait up a second, but she held a hand up and refused to look at me. "I'm going up to see Merida."
"Rapunzel. Rapunzel!" I called, but she ignored me and started walking.
I took one big step and grabbed her arm, dragging her around to face me.
"Let. Me. Go." She growled with such fierceness, I wondered where it had come from.
I tightened my grip. "I don't want to start a fight, not ever, and not now. I'm sorry - it's just that I'm trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and I'm trying to keep YOU from worrying, too!"
Worried I might cut off circulation or something, I loosened my grip a bit, and willed my tears to go away. I hadn't meant to start this fight. I knew she was thinking about yanking her arm from me, because her hand suddenly fisted and she tensed her arm. She looked at my face, and I could see her face soften, just a tiny bit. "And I just want to say this. We're at the stage where we might try to start blaming others for what happened, when we really know it was Tangled Fan. And if that happens, I refuse to fight with you or blame you for any of this - you can hate me or whatever all you want, but I won't. I just need you to know that I'm just trying to be here for you, and be the faithful husband I should be."
"Did I say I hated you?" She started to bristle. Again.
"No! I'm just saying that I'll be here for you. Even if you do end up thinking stuff like that. Just listen, honey." She nodded, breathing deeply. Her face was red and tear streaked. I started to cry, but kept on. "It just gets a little hard when you're trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and the person you're trying to keep optimistic...isn't being optimistic! I'm sorry I made that crack about your attitude. It just...I just lost my cool for a minute. And it just takes one sentence, one minute, to ruin a relationship. I don't want that. Baby, I soo don't want that." I let go of her hand and added that if she wanted to go to Merida's, she could.
"No, I'm sorry. You need me as much as I need you right now." She did a little hiccup, and her face was horror-stricken. She pressed her hands on her eyes. "I'm so, so sorry. I miss them so much!" she gasped as if someone had punched her in the stomach.
I stepped over and grabbed her up, holding her as close as I could. She let out the most mournful sound ever uttered, and I started sobbing too, and shaking. I was trying to be the macho man here, and it just wasn't working right now.
She wrapped her arms around me. "Hon..I'm sorry..I'm so sorry. You're right - they'll be okay. Maybe we'll...we'll wake up tomorrow aaand find them all here again. Maybe this is just a...dream." She kept sobbing as she tried to take a breath in.
I put one hand on her head and held her close, putting my head up against her soft hair. Taking several breaths, I tried to calm down.
I guess I must've calmed down, alright. Next thing I knew, I had fallen down and Rapunzel was scrambling to get up off of me.
"You fell asleep. Sorry, but I don't think I can carry you." I knew she was trying to lighten the mood and joke, but I couldn't find a smile anywhere to give her - I wanted to, though. I wanted to feel as carefree as we had been just yesterday!
I sat up, and she curled tightly up against me, putting both arms around me and putting her head up against me. I think I fell asleep before she did. It really was exhausting to be terrified.
Why did Tangled Fan take our kids???? I know they were just fosters, but good grief, ask a doll before you take them away in their sleep!
I'd like to say a lot of things to her, but I know that wouldn't be nice. You can't beat up on someone based off of their level of ignorance, I suppose. But still. Us dolls have feelings too! We're not all like "Oh okay our kids just got taken away. It's fine.". Ugh.
I'll try to keep you all updated..I'm sure Rapunzel will. It kills me to see her like this. If I could find them somehow, I would definitely try to - but I don't think I could. Otherwise, we would have all of them back with us! :[
So this morning, I was awakened by Rapunzel, who was frantically shaking my arm.
It ends up that Jase, Allie, Janet, and Hallie were all gone.
We searched for them for close to two hours. Then, Rapunzel, Merida, and Rayne went off to search the 18 inchers' dresser.
I paced along the deck and worried for awhile. But then I decided to keep searching for awhile.
It took those three several hours until they came back, and by then, I was back pacing the deck.
I saw my wife coming up the deck, and I stood still, trying to suppress my hopefulness.
But as she neared, I saw her red-rimmed eyes and she was biting her lip. I almost lost it, and my face crumpled. I did manage, however, to keep from bawling.
After that, Tangled Fan came walking into the room, waltzing through as normally as ever. Told Rapunzel that Janet and Allie were adopted, Hallie was pending, and Jase had been carelessly tossed into the Goodwill bag.
Rapunzel looked like her knees just crumpled underneath her. She buried her face into her knees and sobbed.
I walked over to her slowly, gathering my thoughts and composure. She needed me right now. Needed me not to be a complete mess.
"I'm so...sorry...I-I should've told her we wanted to adopt them. And n-now they're gggone!" She sobbed, and I bent to gather her in my arms.
"Shh. It's okay." I reassured her further, carried her to the shelf, sat down, and held her on my lap.
She finally began crying. Sobs wracked her body and I wondered if she could actually hurt herself from crying so hard. I held her close and rocked back and forth. I really struggled to keep from crying..but then I broke down and let a few tears loose.
She pulled away from me and looked at me, and I didn't meet her eyes. She put her tiny hand on mine. "I'm so sorry. I c-can't believe...I can't-" She started crying again, and I pulled her back in to my chest.
I tried to reassure her that everything happened for a reason, and that everything probably would turn out okay.
She pulled away and looked at me. I tried to muster a brave smile, but it was shaky. I wondered if Tangled Fan would've done this to me when Rapunzel's arm was messed up - if she would've just tossed her away carelessly, if I hadn't've asked her to marry me. The very thought made me almost cry more.
Eventually, she calmed down and wiped her cheeks. I cupped her cheeks with my hands.
"Everything will be okay - don't worry. You'll see."
"But what if everything ISN'T okay?" She stared at me, demanding an answer.
"It just will be." I pulled her close for a tight hug, and glanced at the alarm clock. It was coming close to 9. "Might as well get some sleep now."
I started to go to bed, and she snorted. "Sleep? Right."
I'd been trying to hard to avoid snapping at her pessimism and sarcasm, but I'd had enough. Before I could catch myself, I wheeled on her. "Your attitude won't help the situation, miss! I miss them too, and I'm trying to be here for you, but you're making it awfully hard!"
My wife threw it right back into my face. "Then don't be! Don't worry about little old me, who has an ATTITUDE! Nobody in our situation would be a little bit pessimistic, anyway!"
That wasn't what I'd said, was it? "I didn't say -"
But she wasn't done. "And how on earth do you expect me to NOT be mad or upset or anything? My children just got taken away from me!"
She started to turn away. I told her to wait up a second, but she held a hand up and refused to look at me. "I'm going up to see Merida."
"Rapunzel. Rapunzel!" I called, but she ignored me and started walking.
I took one big step and grabbed her arm, dragging her around to face me.
"Let. Me. Go." She growled with such fierceness, I wondered where it had come from.
I tightened my grip. "I don't want to start a fight, not ever, and not now. I'm sorry - it's just that I'm trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and I'm trying to keep YOU from worrying, too!"
Worried I might cut off circulation or something, I loosened my grip a bit, and willed my tears to go away. I hadn't meant to start this fight. I knew she was thinking about yanking her arm from me, because her hand suddenly fisted and she tensed her arm. She looked at my face, and I could see her face soften, just a tiny bit. "And I just want to say this. We're at the stage where we might try to start blaming others for what happened, when we really know it was Tangled Fan. And if that happens, I refuse to fight with you or blame you for any of this - you can hate me or whatever all you want, but I won't. I just need you to know that I'm just trying to be here for you, and be the faithful husband I should be."
"Did I say I hated you?" She started to bristle. Again.
"No! I'm just saying that I'll be here for you. Even if you do end up thinking stuff like that. Just listen, honey." She nodded, breathing deeply. Her face was red and tear streaked. I started to cry, but kept on. "It just gets a little hard when you're trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and the person you're trying to keep optimistic...isn't being optimistic! I'm sorry I made that crack about your attitude. It just...I just lost my cool for a minute. And it just takes one sentence, one minute, to ruin a relationship. I don't want that. Baby, I soo don't want that." I let go of her hand and added that if she wanted to go to Merida's, she could.
"No, I'm sorry. You need me as much as I need you right now." She did a little hiccup, and her face was horror-stricken. She pressed her hands on her eyes. "I'm so, so sorry. I miss them so much!" she gasped as if someone had punched her in the stomach.
I stepped over and grabbed her up, holding her as close as I could. She let out the most mournful sound ever uttered, and I started sobbing too, and shaking. I was trying to be the macho man here, and it just wasn't working right now.
She wrapped her arms around me. "Hon..I'm sorry..I'm so sorry. You're right - they'll be okay. Maybe we'll...we'll wake up tomorrow aaand find them all here again. Maybe this is just a...dream." She kept sobbing as she tried to take a breath in.
I put one hand on her head and held her close, putting my head up against her soft hair. Taking several breaths, I tried to calm down.
I guess I must've calmed down, alright. Next thing I knew, I had fallen down and Rapunzel was scrambling to get up off of me.
"You fell asleep. Sorry, but I don't think I can carry you." I knew she was trying to lighten the mood and joke, but I couldn't find a smile anywhere to give her - I wanted to, though. I wanted to feel as carefree as we had been just yesterday!
I sat up, and she curled tightly up against me, putting both arms around me and putting her head up against me. I think I fell asleep before she did. It really was exhausting to be terrified.
Why did Tangled Fan take our kids???? I know they were just fosters, but good grief, ask a doll before you take them away in their sleep!
I'd like to say a lot of things to her, but I know that wouldn't be nice. You can't beat up on someone based off of their level of ignorance, I suppose. But still. Us dolls have feelings too! We're not all like "Oh okay our kids just got taken away. It's fine.". Ugh.
I'll try to keep you all updated..I'm sure Rapunzel will. It kills me to see her like this. If I could find them somehow, I would definitely try to - but I don't think I could. Otherwise, we would have all of them back with us! :[
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