Hi everyone -
We STILL don't know what's going on with the kids. Tangled Fan's hardly been around. When she is around, though, I get so mad I can hardly stand myself!
I've also kind of been getting angry with myself, too. To watch my wonderful, sweet, carefree wife just wilt underneath the pressure of the whole situation, was just beyond horrible. I knew that if I had not brought up the idea of fostering, we BOTH wouldn't be going through this, let alone her! I've been trying to be strong, but it's hard.
So today, when Rapunzel left me alone for a good while, to go talk with Merida and the gang, I finally broke down. The still quietness was deafening, and I just collapsed into the wicker chair and bawled like a baby, I am ashamed to admit. You see, I'm used to being a tough guy that doesn't cry. And I can't be that guy right now. And on top of all that, I can't be the strong husband my wife needs!
Regardless.
I hardly even noticed Rapunzel when she got back from her visit with Merida, but she for sure noticed me. Unfortunately. And that upset me even more!
"Are you alright?" She asked me. I jumped up when I saw her, swallowing hard to try to collect my thoughts.
"Uh, yeah - everything's fine." I fibbed...yes.. I fibbed.
Rapunzel didn't believe me though. "I know better than that. Tell me - it's good to let it all out, trust me!" She pried.
"No, it's-"
"You know, we're husband and wife! You are supposed to tell me all your troubles."
I looked down to avoid my wife's searching eyes. "I don't see the need to tell you about it when you know, too." A tear dripped off of my nose - I was afraid to tell her why I was mad at myself.
She grabbed me into a tight hug, and that's when I totally just lost it. Here's this tiny, thin girl that's almost a head shorter than me, and she's trying to comfort me. There's just something wrong with that - I should be comforting HER! I buried my head in her shoulder and started sobbing hard. I hadn't cried hard since Friday. She stood and kept her hold on me until I finished, pulled my head up, and looked at her.
Finally, I partially spilled what the problem was.
She bit her lip and put a small hand on my cheek. "I know, honey; I know. You don't have to be the big tough guy right now - it's fine to let a few tears fall once in awhile."
"But what about you? You need someone stronger than this to help YOU get through it-"
She broke me off. "Flynn, I didn't marry you because you were tough. It's perfectly natural to be upset right now - you would seem really weird if you weren't sad. And you've helped me already - just the fact that I know you're here with me? That's a comfort, and-"
I cut her off, almost accidentally blurting the rest of my concerns.
After that, I was just mad at myself and walked away from her. My thoughts were racing and I could hardly hear her yelling at me.
Why did I even ever drag her into this? And now I was really messing up our relationship. We hadn't really talked much since Friday - we'd just sat around. Why had I messed this up?
I was just so mad at myself, and I know I shouldn't have been.
"...You'd best turn around and calm down. Getting-"
I thought about and realized that by walking away, I wasn't doing anything good for the relationship, either.
I froze, turned on my heel, and grabbed her up into a kiss. She jumped in surprise, and I think I almost knocked her over with my suddenness. I put my arms around her and held her as closely as I could - I didn't want to let go of her. The past couple of days, I'd been so on edge about waking up someday and finding HER gone, too!
Finally, I took my lips from hers, but I still held her closely.
"What in the world? I don't - I mean..." She fumbled, and I could tell she was horribly confused.
"Just thank you for being you. And not blaming me for anything when I deserve blame-"
She cut me off. "Excuse me, but you do not deserve to be blamed for this. It was Tangled Fa-"
I didn't want to get into it again, so I brushed my lips with hers, long enough to silence her.
"You're terrible, you know that? I'm trying to say something, something possibly important, and all you want to do is KISS me?"
I finally saw some of her silly spunk, and I smiled at her, deciding to make this moment of sudden silliness a bit longer.
"Well, what other way could I get you to be quiet? Usually, you're like a dog with a bone - once you have something, you don't drop it till it's all said and done. But hey, it worked - didn't it?"
She fumbled around for the rest of the sentence in order to prove me wrong, and she failed.
I tried to suppress a laugh, and grinned at her.
"You're bad, but I love you anyway." She gave me a small, sweet smile, full of innocence. I also noticed how happy she seemed to be, now that I was...teasing her? Uh, okay...but hey, if it makes my girl happy, I'll tease her to no end!
I gave her another quick little kiss.
"You're a little over the top now, hon."
"Well, I haven't kissed you at all since Thursday, so I need to catch up!" I joked with an attempt at an innocent face.
She rolled her eyes, but then at the mention of Thursday, she immediately sobered. Her lovely smile faded again, and her eyes clouded over with grief again.
My own smile faded, and I felt bad for bringing it up.
I brought her chin up and she looked at me. "I know what you're thinking...please stop."
I kissed her again, and she pressed into the kiss, almost like she desperately needed something to distract her.
I finally pulled away, and she took in a shuddery breath that made my heart twinge with sadness.
"Tomorrow, I WILL confront Tangled Fan. She'll give me the scoop on this whole situation, or at least she'd better!"
I was afraid she'd end up getting tossed away if Tangled Fan got too mad or something. I didn't see Tangled Fan doing that, but you never know.
"It's not worth getting into a fight over," I warned.
"You know what? If she wants to toss me out in the Dumpster because I want my kids back, she can!" She said with such bitterness, I was taken aback slightly.
I desperately wanted to distract her again. I needed that funny little moment of happiness back.
"See...I told you. Like a dog with a bone." I winked at her, and she gave me a slightly flustered little smile. She quieted down after that, and I rubbed my hand on her back; she leaned up against me. I decided that even if we didn't get the girls back, that I should be thankful for my sweet wife. And from now on, I was going to do anything in my power to seem unconcerned and to keep HER unconcerned, too. Wish me luck, guys - it's gonna take a LOT to get her to stop worrying.
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Quick Update...
Hey everyone...
Haven't seen Tangled Fan much lately, and when she does breeze through, it's to do something, such as clean guinea pig cages (we share the room with her AND her guinea pigs) or put clothes away, or whatever. I want to stop her and demand to know what's going on, but I don't want to seem horribly rude.
At this point, I'm READY to be rude! Flynn's face gets all red and twisted up when he sees Tangled Fan entering the room, so I know he's about ready to snap.
It's been pretty hard on us, as you can imagine. Having your kids only for one week, and then ripped away from you, and one tossed away to Goodwill?? Um, no.
I heard her scrummaging around in bags yesterday, so I'm so hoping she finds the Goodwill bag...and then we could at least have Jase back with us...I can only imagine what's going through all those poor kids' heads right now :(
Today I left Flynn have some alone time and I went up to see Merida, Rayne, and Blondie.
They were really bummed out that there were no updates. I told Merida that Allie had been adopted out to someone else already, and her face just fell. I hated telling my best friend that news! She'd been sooo attached to Allie. Rayne was trying to be upbeat and commented that maybe things would turn out okay and everyone would be brought back to us, and I tried to smile thanks, but it's like my face is made out of cement - I couldn't move my lips to smile no matter what! Blondie was very quiet, and I saw a few tears dripping off of her cheeks. She'd only met the girls once or twice, but she'd really liked Janet, I think.
When I left the shelf for our shelf, I hugged all three of them and thanked them for being there for me and Flynn.
When I got back, Flynn's face was tear-streaked.
"Are you alright?" I asked him. He was collapsed into the wicker chair.
When he noticed me, he jumped up and swallowed. "Uh, yeah. Everything's fine."
"I know better than that. Tell me. It's good to let it all out, trust me!" I pried. He started to refuse. "You know, we're husband and wife! You are supposed to tell me all your troubles."
"I don't see the need to tell you about it when you know, too." He mumbled, looking down as a tear dripped from his nose.
My heart ached and I strode over to him and grabbed him into a tight hug.
He buried his face in my shoulder and his whole body started jerking with the sobs he'd obviously held in since Friday. I just stood and let him cry. When he was ready, he pulled his head away from my shoulder and looked down at me.
"I'm just so..so used to being this big, tough guy that isn't bothered by anything, and isn't easily upset...and if something bad happens, I can usually find a silver lining. But with..with this? I can't. And I'm not used to that. And I want my girls-OUR girls! I want them back in our arms so badly."
I bit my lip and pushed away the tears threatening to sting my eyes. I put a hand on his cheek. "I know, honey. I know. You don't have to be the big tough guy right now - it's fine to let a few tears fall once in awhile."
"But what about you? You need someone stronger than this to help YOU get through it-"
"Flynn, I didn't marry you because you were tough. It's perfectly natural to be upset right now - you would seem really weird if you weren't sad. And you've helped me already. Just the fact that I know you're here with me? That's a comfort, and-"
"But you wouldn't be going through this if I hadn't've suggested it!" He blurted.
He pulled away from me and walked off. I followed after him.
"Flynn, calm down. Flynn! Listen to me. FLYNN!" I finally yelled, because he wasn't listening. I guess he was just so upset with himself that he couldn't stop and turn around to listen to me. He still didn't. "It was my decision too! It's not your fault! Now you'd best turn around and calm down. Getting this worked up isn't good for-"
Whilst I was following him and chewing him out for being so hard on himself, he stopped, turned around, and grabbed me into a kiss, almost knocking me over and interrupting my sentence.
I could hardly remember the last time we'd kissed - we'd been too upset and our relationship, as I now knew, had suffered a blow. My head spun and I couldn't think straight - what was he doing, anyway? First he was crying, then he was mad at himself, and now he was kissing me with such passion that I almost started crying too! Talk about confusing - and men think WE'RE confusing!
Finally, he pulled away from me, but he still held me close in his arms.
"What in the world...? I don't...I mean.." I fumbled for what I wanted to say, without sounding rude or unappreciative or anything.
"Just thank you for being you. And not blaming me for anything when I deserve blame-"
"Excuse me, but you do NOT deserve to be blamed for this - it was Tangled Fa-" He kissed me again, but just long enough to cut me off from my sentence. "You're terrible, you know that? I'm trying to say something, something possibly important, and all you want to do is kiss me?!"
It wasn't a reprimand, but I was trying to get a smile out of him...and it worked.
"Well, what other way could I get you to be quiet? Usually, you're like a dog with a bone - once you have something, you don't drop it till it's all said and done. But hey, it worked - didn't it?"
"It was Tangled Fan that did everything, so..." I tried to finish what I'd been wanting to say. "So, um..."
His eyes laughed for the first time since Thursday, and he gave me an 'I told you so' grin.
"You're bad. But I love you anyway." I offered a small smile, glad to have a glimmer of my old Flynn back. Who knew that someone could miss being teased so much?
He gave me another quick kiss and then I told him he was being a little over-the-top.
"Well, I haven't kissed you at all since Thursday, so I need to catch up!" He joked.
I rolled my eyes and I sobered when I thought about Thursday. We'd been a perfect little - okay, not so little - family then. It was amazing how much could change in a matter of hours. As I was thinking of this, Flynn gently brought my chin up so I was looking at him. It was also amazing how quickly that dance in his eye had vanished.
"I know what you're thinking. Please stop," he kissed me and I leaned into him.
My heart ached for a moment and I wished I hadn't've thought of that. It had been so nice to be back to a sense of normality :/
I took in a deep, shuddery breath, and said to him, "Tomorrow, I WILL confront Tangled Fan. She'll give me the scoop on this whole situation, or at least she'd better!"
"It's not worth getting into a fight over."
"You know what? If she wants to toss me out in the Dumpster because I want my KIDS back, she can!" I said bitterly.
"See..I told you - like a dog with a bone." He winked at me, and I could tell he was trying to get me off the subject. So I quieted down.
And that's basically what we're at right now. Will keep you guys updated as necessary. Not sure if Flynn will be doing a post with his side or not, you'll have to wait and see - I hope he does though, because it seems to give him something else to think about!
Haven't seen Tangled Fan much lately, and when she does breeze through, it's to do something, such as clean guinea pig cages (we share the room with her AND her guinea pigs) or put clothes away, or whatever. I want to stop her and demand to know what's going on, but I don't want to seem horribly rude.
At this point, I'm READY to be rude! Flynn's face gets all red and twisted up when he sees Tangled Fan entering the room, so I know he's about ready to snap.
It's been pretty hard on us, as you can imagine. Having your kids only for one week, and then ripped away from you, and one tossed away to Goodwill?? Um, no.
I heard her scrummaging around in bags yesterday, so I'm so hoping she finds the Goodwill bag...and then we could at least have Jase back with us...I can only imagine what's going through all those poor kids' heads right now :(
Today I left Flynn have some alone time and I went up to see Merida, Rayne, and Blondie.
They were really bummed out that there were no updates. I told Merida that Allie had been adopted out to someone else already, and her face just fell. I hated telling my best friend that news! She'd been sooo attached to Allie. Rayne was trying to be upbeat and commented that maybe things would turn out okay and everyone would be brought back to us, and I tried to smile thanks, but it's like my face is made out of cement - I couldn't move my lips to smile no matter what! Blondie was very quiet, and I saw a few tears dripping off of her cheeks. She'd only met the girls once or twice, but she'd really liked Janet, I think.
When I left the shelf for our shelf, I hugged all three of them and thanked them for being there for me and Flynn.
When I got back, Flynn's face was tear-streaked.
"Are you alright?" I asked him. He was collapsed into the wicker chair.
When he noticed me, he jumped up and swallowed. "Uh, yeah. Everything's fine."
"I know better than that. Tell me. It's good to let it all out, trust me!" I pried. He started to refuse. "You know, we're husband and wife! You are supposed to tell me all your troubles."
"I don't see the need to tell you about it when you know, too." He mumbled, looking down as a tear dripped from his nose.
My heart ached and I strode over to him and grabbed him into a tight hug.
He buried his face in my shoulder and his whole body started jerking with the sobs he'd obviously held in since Friday. I just stood and let him cry. When he was ready, he pulled his head away from my shoulder and looked down at me.
"I'm just so..so used to being this big, tough guy that isn't bothered by anything, and isn't easily upset...and if something bad happens, I can usually find a silver lining. But with..with this? I can't. And I'm not used to that. And I want my girls-OUR girls! I want them back in our arms so badly."
I bit my lip and pushed away the tears threatening to sting my eyes. I put a hand on his cheek. "I know, honey. I know. You don't have to be the big tough guy right now - it's fine to let a few tears fall once in awhile."
"But what about you? You need someone stronger than this to help YOU get through it-"
"Flynn, I didn't marry you because you were tough. It's perfectly natural to be upset right now - you would seem really weird if you weren't sad. And you've helped me already. Just the fact that I know you're here with me? That's a comfort, and-"
"But you wouldn't be going through this if I hadn't've suggested it!" He blurted.
He pulled away from me and walked off. I followed after him.
"Flynn, calm down. Flynn! Listen to me. FLYNN!" I finally yelled, because he wasn't listening. I guess he was just so upset with himself that he couldn't stop and turn around to listen to me. He still didn't. "It was my decision too! It's not your fault! Now you'd best turn around and calm down. Getting this worked up isn't good for-"
Whilst I was following him and chewing him out for being so hard on himself, he stopped, turned around, and grabbed me into a kiss, almost knocking me over and interrupting my sentence.
I could hardly remember the last time we'd kissed - we'd been too upset and our relationship, as I now knew, had suffered a blow. My head spun and I couldn't think straight - what was he doing, anyway? First he was crying, then he was mad at himself, and now he was kissing me with such passion that I almost started crying too! Talk about confusing - and men think WE'RE confusing!
Finally, he pulled away from me, but he still held me close in his arms.
"What in the world...? I don't...I mean.." I fumbled for what I wanted to say, without sounding rude or unappreciative or anything.
"Just thank you for being you. And not blaming me for anything when I deserve blame-"
"Excuse me, but you do NOT deserve to be blamed for this - it was Tangled Fa-" He kissed me again, but just long enough to cut me off from my sentence. "You're terrible, you know that? I'm trying to say something, something possibly important, and all you want to do is kiss me?!"
It wasn't a reprimand, but I was trying to get a smile out of him...and it worked.
"Well, what other way could I get you to be quiet? Usually, you're like a dog with a bone - once you have something, you don't drop it till it's all said and done. But hey, it worked - didn't it?"
"It was Tangled Fan that did everything, so..." I tried to finish what I'd been wanting to say. "So, um..."
His eyes laughed for the first time since Thursday, and he gave me an 'I told you so' grin.
"You're bad. But I love you anyway." I offered a small smile, glad to have a glimmer of my old Flynn back. Who knew that someone could miss being teased so much?
He gave me another quick kiss and then I told him he was being a little over-the-top.
"Well, I haven't kissed you at all since Thursday, so I need to catch up!" He joked.
I rolled my eyes and I sobered when I thought about Thursday. We'd been a perfect little - okay, not so little - family then. It was amazing how much could change in a matter of hours. As I was thinking of this, Flynn gently brought my chin up so I was looking at him. It was also amazing how quickly that dance in his eye had vanished.
"I know what you're thinking. Please stop," he kissed me and I leaned into him.
My heart ached for a moment and I wished I hadn't've thought of that. It had been so nice to be back to a sense of normality :/
I took in a deep, shuddery breath, and said to him, "Tomorrow, I WILL confront Tangled Fan. She'll give me the scoop on this whole situation, or at least she'd better!"
"It's not worth getting into a fight over."
"You know what? If she wants to toss me out in the Dumpster because I want my KIDS back, she can!" I said bitterly.
"See..I told you - like a dog with a bone." He winked at me, and I could tell he was trying to get me off the subject. So I quieted down.
And that's basically what we're at right now. Will keep you guys updated as necessary. Not sure if Flynn will be doing a post with his side or not, you'll have to wait and see - I hope he does though, because it seems to give him something else to think about!
Friday, July 12, 2013
Flynn here..can you say worst day ever??
Hey guys...sorry if I seem a bit mean, but I need to blow off some steam.
So this morning, I was awakened by Rapunzel, who was frantically shaking my arm.
It ends up that Jase, Allie, Janet, and Hallie were all gone.
We searched for them for close to two hours. Then, Rapunzel, Merida, and Rayne went off to search the 18 inchers' dresser.
I paced along the deck and worried for awhile. But then I decided to keep searching for awhile.
It took those three several hours until they came back, and by then, I was back pacing the deck.
I saw my wife coming up the deck, and I stood still, trying to suppress my hopefulness.
But as she neared, I saw her red-rimmed eyes and she was biting her lip. I almost lost it, and my face crumpled. I did manage, however, to keep from bawling.
After that, Tangled Fan came walking into the room, waltzing through as normally as ever. Told Rapunzel that Janet and Allie were adopted, Hallie was pending, and Jase had been carelessly tossed into the Goodwill bag.
Rapunzel looked like her knees just crumpled underneath her. She buried her face into her knees and sobbed.
I walked over to her slowly, gathering my thoughts and composure. She needed me right now. Needed me not to be a complete mess.
"I'm so...sorry...I-I should've told her we wanted to adopt them. And n-now they're gggone!" She sobbed, and I bent to gather her in my arms.
"Shh. It's okay." I reassured her further, carried her to the shelf, sat down, and held her on my lap.
She finally began crying. Sobs wracked her body and I wondered if she could actually hurt herself from crying so hard. I held her close and rocked back and forth. I really struggled to keep from crying..but then I broke down and let a few tears loose.
She pulled away from me and looked at me, and I didn't meet her eyes. She put her tiny hand on mine. "I'm so sorry. I c-can't believe...I can't-" She started crying again, and I pulled her back in to my chest.
I tried to reassure her that everything happened for a reason, and that everything probably would turn out okay.
She pulled away and looked at me. I tried to muster a brave smile, but it was shaky. I wondered if Tangled Fan would've done this to me when Rapunzel's arm was messed up - if she would've just tossed her away carelessly, if I hadn't've asked her to marry me. The very thought made me almost cry more.
Eventually, she calmed down and wiped her cheeks. I cupped her cheeks with my hands.
"Everything will be okay - don't worry. You'll see."
"But what if everything ISN'T okay?" She stared at me, demanding an answer.
"It just will be." I pulled her close for a tight hug, and glanced at the alarm clock. It was coming close to 9. "Might as well get some sleep now."
I started to go to bed, and she snorted. "Sleep? Right."
I'd been trying to hard to avoid snapping at her pessimism and sarcasm, but I'd had enough. Before I could catch myself, I wheeled on her. "Your attitude won't help the situation, miss! I miss them too, and I'm trying to be here for you, but you're making it awfully hard!"
My wife threw it right back into my face. "Then don't be! Don't worry about little old me, who has an ATTITUDE! Nobody in our situation would be a little bit pessimistic, anyway!"
That wasn't what I'd said, was it? "I didn't say -"
But she wasn't done. "And how on earth do you expect me to NOT be mad or upset or anything? My children just got taken away from me!"
She started to turn away. I told her to wait up a second, but she held a hand up and refused to look at me. "I'm going up to see Merida."
"Rapunzel. Rapunzel!" I called, but she ignored me and started walking.
I took one big step and grabbed her arm, dragging her around to face me.
"Let. Me. Go." She growled with such fierceness, I wondered where it had come from.
I tightened my grip. "I don't want to start a fight, not ever, and not now. I'm sorry - it's just that I'm trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and I'm trying to keep YOU from worrying, too!"
Worried I might cut off circulation or something, I loosened my grip a bit, and willed my tears to go away. I hadn't meant to start this fight. I knew she was thinking about yanking her arm from me, because her hand suddenly fisted and she tensed her arm. She looked at my face, and I could see her face soften, just a tiny bit. "And I just want to say this. We're at the stage where we might try to start blaming others for what happened, when we really know it was Tangled Fan. And if that happens, I refuse to fight with you or blame you for any of this - you can hate me or whatever all you want, but I won't. I just need you to know that I'm just trying to be here for you, and be the faithful husband I should be."
"Did I say I hated you?" She started to bristle. Again.
"No! I'm just saying that I'll be here for you. Even if you do end up thinking stuff like that. Just listen, honey." She nodded, breathing deeply. Her face was red and tear streaked. I started to cry, but kept on. "It just gets a little hard when you're trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and the person you're trying to keep optimistic...isn't being optimistic! I'm sorry I made that crack about your attitude. It just...I just lost my cool for a minute. And it just takes one sentence, one minute, to ruin a relationship. I don't want that. Baby, I soo don't want that." I let go of her hand and added that if she wanted to go to Merida's, she could.
"No, I'm sorry. You need me as much as I need you right now." She did a little hiccup, and her face was horror-stricken. She pressed her hands on her eyes. "I'm so, so sorry. I miss them so much!" she gasped as if someone had punched her in the stomach.
I stepped over and grabbed her up, holding her as close as I could. She let out the most mournful sound ever uttered, and I started sobbing too, and shaking. I was trying to be the macho man here, and it just wasn't working right now.
She wrapped her arms around me. "Hon..I'm sorry..I'm so sorry. You're right - they'll be okay. Maybe we'll...we'll wake up tomorrow aaand find them all here again. Maybe this is just a...dream." She kept sobbing as she tried to take a breath in.
I put one hand on her head and held her close, putting my head up against her soft hair. Taking several breaths, I tried to calm down.
I guess I must've calmed down, alright. Next thing I knew, I had fallen down and Rapunzel was scrambling to get up off of me.
"You fell asleep. Sorry, but I don't think I can carry you." I knew she was trying to lighten the mood and joke, but I couldn't find a smile anywhere to give her - I wanted to, though. I wanted to feel as carefree as we had been just yesterday!
I sat up, and she curled tightly up against me, putting both arms around me and putting her head up against me. I think I fell asleep before she did. It really was exhausting to be terrified.
Why did Tangled Fan take our kids???? I know they were just fosters, but good grief, ask a doll before you take them away in their sleep!
I'd like to say a lot of things to her, but I know that wouldn't be nice. You can't beat up on someone based off of their level of ignorance, I suppose. But still. Us dolls have feelings too! We're not all like "Oh okay our kids just got taken away. It's fine.". Ugh.
I'll try to keep you all updated..I'm sure Rapunzel will. It kills me to see her like this. If I could find them somehow, I would definitely try to - but I don't think I could. Otherwise, we would have all of them back with us! :[
So this morning, I was awakened by Rapunzel, who was frantically shaking my arm.
It ends up that Jase, Allie, Janet, and Hallie were all gone.
We searched for them for close to two hours. Then, Rapunzel, Merida, and Rayne went off to search the 18 inchers' dresser.
I paced along the deck and worried for awhile. But then I decided to keep searching for awhile.
It took those three several hours until they came back, and by then, I was back pacing the deck.
I saw my wife coming up the deck, and I stood still, trying to suppress my hopefulness.
But as she neared, I saw her red-rimmed eyes and she was biting her lip. I almost lost it, and my face crumpled. I did manage, however, to keep from bawling.
After that, Tangled Fan came walking into the room, waltzing through as normally as ever. Told Rapunzel that Janet and Allie were adopted, Hallie was pending, and Jase had been carelessly tossed into the Goodwill bag.
Rapunzel looked like her knees just crumpled underneath her. She buried her face into her knees and sobbed.
I walked over to her slowly, gathering my thoughts and composure. She needed me right now. Needed me not to be a complete mess.
"I'm so...sorry...I-I should've told her we wanted to adopt them. And n-now they're gggone!" She sobbed, and I bent to gather her in my arms.
"Shh. It's okay." I reassured her further, carried her to the shelf, sat down, and held her on my lap.
She finally began crying. Sobs wracked her body and I wondered if she could actually hurt herself from crying so hard. I held her close and rocked back and forth. I really struggled to keep from crying..but then I broke down and let a few tears loose.
She pulled away from me and looked at me, and I didn't meet her eyes. She put her tiny hand on mine. "I'm so sorry. I c-can't believe...I can't-" She started crying again, and I pulled her back in to my chest.
I tried to reassure her that everything happened for a reason, and that everything probably would turn out okay.
She pulled away and looked at me. I tried to muster a brave smile, but it was shaky. I wondered if Tangled Fan would've done this to me when Rapunzel's arm was messed up - if she would've just tossed her away carelessly, if I hadn't've asked her to marry me. The very thought made me almost cry more.
Eventually, she calmed down and wiped her cheeks. I cupped her cheeks with my hands.
"Everything will be okay - don't worry. You'll see."
"But what if everything ISN'T okay?" She stared at me, demanding an answer.
"It just will be." I pulled her close for a tight hug, and glanced at the alarm clock. It was coming close to 9. "Might as well get some sleep now."
I started to go to bed, and she snorted. "Sleep? Right."
I'd been trying to hard to avoid snapping at her pessimism and sarcasm, but I'd had enough. Before I could catch myself, I wheeled on her. "Your attitude won't help the situation, miss! I miss them too, and I'm trying to be here for you, but you're making it awfully hard!"
My wife threw it right back into my face. "Then don't be! Don't worry about little old me, who has an ATTITUDE! Nobody in our situation would be a little bit pessimistic, anyway!"
That wasn't what I'd said, was it? "I didn't say -"
But she wasn't done. "And how on earth do you expect me to NOT be mad or upset or anything? My children just got taken away from me!"
She started to turn away. I told her to wait up a second, but she held a hand up and refused to look at me. "I'm going up to see Merida."
"Rapunzel. Rapunzel!" I called, but she ignored me and started walking.
I took one big step and grabbed her arm, dragging her around to face me.
"Let. Me. Go." She growled with such fierceness, I wondered where it had come from.
I tightened my grip. "I don't want to start a fight, not ever, and not now. I'm sorry - it's just that I'm trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and I'm trying to keep YOU from worrying, too!"
Worried I might cut off circulation or something, I loosened my grip a bit, and willed my tears to go away. I hadn't meant to start this fight. I knew she was thinking about yanking her arm from me, because her hand suddenly fisted and she tensed her arm. She looked at my face, and I could see her face soften, just a tiny bit. "And I just want to say this. We're at the stage where we might try to start blaming others for what happened, when we really know it was Tangled Fan. And if that happens, I refuse to fight with you or blame you for any of this - you can hate me or whatever all you want, but I won't. I just need you to know that I'm just trying to be here for you, and be the faithful husband I should be."
"Did I say I hated you?" She started to bristle. Again.
"No! I'm just saying that I'll be here for you. Even if you do end up thinking stuff like that. Just listen, honey." She nodded, breathing deeply. Her face was red and tear streaked. I started to cry, but kept on. "It just gets a little hard when you're trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and the person you're trying to keep optimistic...isn't being optimistic! I'm sorry I made that crack about your attitude. It just...I just lost my cool for a minute. And it just takes one sentence, one minute, to ruin a relationship. I don't want that. Baby, I soo don't want that." I let go of her hand and added that if she wanted to go to Merida's, she could.
"No, I'm sorry. You need me as much as I need you right now." She did a little hiccup, and her face was horror-stricken. She pressed her hands on her eyes. "I'm so, so sorry. I miss them so much!" she gasped as if someone had punched her in the stomach.
I stepped over and grabbed her up, holding her as close as I could. She let out the most mournful sound ever uttered, and I started sobbing too, and shaking. I was trying to be the macho man here, and it just wasn't working right now.
She wrapped her arms around me. "Hon..I'm sorry..I'm so sorry. You're right - they'll be okay. Maybe we'll...we'll wake up tomorrow aaand find them all here again. Maybe this is just a...dream." She kept sobbing as she tried to take a breath in.
I put one hand on her head and held her close, putting my head up against her soft hair. Taking several breaths, I tried to calm down.
I guess I must've calmed down, alright. Next thing I knew, I had fallen down and Rapunzel was scrambling to get up off of me.
"You fell asleep. Sorry, but I don't think I can carry you." I knew she was trying to lighten the mood and joke, but I couldn't find a smile anywhere to give her - I wanted to, though. I wanted to feel as carefree as we had been just yesterday!
I sat up, and she curled tightly up against me, putting both arms around me and putting her head up against me. I think I fell asleep before she did. It really was exhausting to be terrified.
Why did Tangled Fan take our kids???? I know they were just fosters, but good grief, ask a doll before you take them away in their sleep!
I'd like to say a lot of things to her, but I know that wouldn't be nice. You can't beat up on someone based off of their level of ignorance, I suppose. But still. Us dolls have feelings too! We're not all like "Oh okay our kids just got taken away. It's fine.". Ugh.
I'll try to keep you all updated..I'm sure Rapunzel will. It kills me to see her like this. If I could find them somehow, I would definitely try to - but I don't think I could. Otherwise, we would have all of them back with us! :[
Friday Fright
Yes, I know - tacky title, and I think I have some other post named similarly already. But I couldn't think of anything else.
Friday morning, I woke up around 8. With a yawn, I blinked groggily at Flynn, who was still sleeping. I eased slowly away from him, so as not to wake him. Surprised to hear the babies were still asleep, I stood to look at everyone, to make sure everyone was alright.
I froze. The chair was empty. Jase wasn't behind the alarm clock. The babies were gone. Clapping a hand to my mouth and my other to my stomach, I ran to the printer, scrabbled up onto it, and asked Merida if the kids were up there.
Merida shook her head, confused, and I gasped.
"They're..they're gone!"
"Och, no!" Merida jumped up. Her legs gave out on her, and she nearly fell. I leaned over and grabbed her arm to keep her from plummeting off of the shelf. She jumped back up and woke Rayne and Blondie. "Get Flynn and we'll start searching for them! Maybe they got stuffed in a drawer or something."
I hurtled back over and flung myself down by Flynn, shaking his arm urgently and saying his name until he woke.
"Good morning, sweethear-what's wrong?" He had started to come in for a kiss, but froze when I jerked away from him.
"They're gone!" I managed.
"Who's gone?" He was awake and alert now.
"They are!" I gestured towards the empty shelf, and he pushed past to see for himself.
"Get down here and help us root through these drawers!" I yelled frantically, yanking on a handle with all my might. Falling backwards onto the chair, I thought about how mean that had sounded. "Please. Flynn, please come and help us root through these drawers. I'm sorry." I crawled into the drawer and almost lost myself in amongst mounds and mounds of papers - the drawer Tangled Fan kept her finished drawings in. I shuffled through and around piles, and they weren't in here. Flynn was working his way quickly amongst the other drawers, helping Merida, Rayne, and Blondie; and we made quick work of all six of the drawers.
Merida, Rayne and I left for the 18 inchers' dresser to go through those drawers, which held clothes (human clothes - not their clothes.) No sign of them there, either, and it had taken us forever to go through them all!
I was trying to keep from crying, but when Merida and Rayne hugged me as we walked back to the shelves, I almost broke down completely. A few tears dropped, and I could tell both Merida and Rayne were devastated as well. They were such good friends. I thanked them for helping, and dejectedly wandered up to Flynn.
He saw me coming on the 'deck', and looked so hopeful. Like an excited little kid.
I dreaded telling him we hadn't found them.
I was biting my lip as I walked up to him. He saw my face and his crumpled before he could keep his composure.
Just then, Tangled Fan came walking into the room.
"Where are they?" I yelled.
"Where are-oh. I didn't think you were planning on adopting any of them."
"Where are they?" I repeated, through my teeth.
"Janet and Allie were adopted out. I'm planning on someone coming to adopt Hallie tomorrow."
"J-Jase?" I asked.
"Goodwill bag. Sorry, I didn't realize.." She stopped. "The Goodwill bag...Oh no! I think it's gone!" She tore out of the room.
I dropped to my knees, balled up, and sobbed.
I heard Flynn walk up to me. "I'm so..sorry...I-I should've told her we wanted to adopt them..and n-now they're g-g-gone!" I sobbed. I didn't realize how much I'd really come to love those four little girls.
Flynn gathered me up in his arms. "Shh. It's okay. Maybe she'll find Jase and those other dolls won't adopt Hallie, and at least we can still have those two."
He carried me to the shelf, sat down,and held me on his lap. I felt like a seven year old, but I didn't care. The dam finally broke and I cried hard. Sobs wracked my body and Flynn held me close, rocking from side to side, with his head pressed up against my head. I felt my hair get wet.
I pulled away and looked at him. He wouldn't meet my eyes, but I saw his were red-rimmed.
I put my hand on his. "I'm so sorry...I c-can't believe...I can't-" He pulled me back in as I started to cry more.
"I'm sure we'll be able to adopt others." He whispered. "Everything happens for a reason, honey. It's not your fault. You didn't know that this was going to happen."
I pulled away again, but he still kept his arms loosely around me. One look told me he didn't quite believe the words he was saying, either. He tried to offer a brave smile, but it didn't do a thing, and his smile was shaking.
Suddenly, I realized that this might've happened with Flynn if his migraine hadn't stopped. I would've woken up and he would've been gone. Just like I'd woken up and found the shelf empty.
I leaned back into his chest, and just sat there, trying to calm myself. My tears were all gone eventually, but I still felt awful and hollow.
I loosed a shaky sigh, and I went to wipe my tears. Flynn cupped my cheeks with his hands, and whispered that everything would be okay.
"But what if everything isn't okay?" I stared at him.
"It just will be." He pulled me in again into a tight hug, but then he must've glanced at the alarm clock. "Might as well go get some sleep now." He stood and I did, too, and he was starting towards bed.
I snorted. "Sleep? Right."
He wheeled around towards me. "Your attitude won't help the situation, miss. I miss them, too, and I'm trying to be here for you, but you're making it awfully hard."
"Then don't be! Don't worry about little old me, who has an attitude. Nobody in our situation would be a little bit pessimistic, anyway."
"I didn't say-"
"And how on earth do you expect me to not be mad or upset or anything? My children just got taken away from me!"
"Rapunzel, wait up a second. I just-"
I held a hand up. "I'm going up to see Merida."
He called my name, but I just turned away and started walking.
Suddenly, he grabbed my arm and pulled me to face him.
"Let me go." I growled.
He looked slightly shocked, but he tightened his grip. "I don't want to start a fight, not ever, and not now. I'm sorry. It's just that I'm trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and I'm trying to keep you from worrying, too."
He slightly loosened his grip on my arm, and I considered jerking away from him. But he looked close to tears, and I could hear it in his voice. "And I just want to say this - We're at the stage where we might try to start blaming others for what happened, when we really know it was Tangled Fan. And if that happens, I refuse to fight with you or blame you for any of this. You can hate me or whatever all you want, but I won't. I just need you to know that I'm just trying to be here for you, and be the faithful husband I should be."
"Did I say I hated you?" I started to bristle.
"No. I'm just saying that I'll be here for you. Even if you do end up thinking stuff like that. Just listen, honey."
I heard his honest attempt at being cordial right now and wondered how he could be.
I nodded, taking a deep breath to try to cool the hotness in my throat, and he continued. "It just gets a little hard when you're trying to keep an optimistic outlook, and the person you're trying to keep optimistic...isn't being optimistic. I'm sorry I made that crack about your attitude. It just...I just lost my cool for a minute. And it just takes one sentence, one minute, to ruin a relationship. I don't want that. Baby, I so don't want that."
He was in tears. I felt terrible for starting all this. He loosened his grip on my hand and let it go. "But if you feel better going to talk things over with Merida, I understand."
"No. I'm sorry. You need me as much as I need you right now." I tried to suppress a sob. I wished I could have held in my sarcasm and pessimism. I pressed my hands on my eyes and squeezed them shut, trying to convince the tears welling in my eyes to go away. "I'm so, so sorry. I miss them so much." I gasped.
He stepped over and grabbed me into a tight embrace. "It's okay. I miss them too."
I let out a cry at how forgiving the poor guy was...I'd been plain mean and he still tried to comfort me.
He was crying openly, too - his whole body was shaking with sobs.
I took my hands away from my eyes and wrapped him in my arms. "Hon..I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...you're right - they'll be okay....maybe we'll...we'll wake up tomorrow a-a-and find them all here again...maybe this's j-just a dr-dream." I couldn't catch my breath without sobbing.
He put one hand on my head and held me so tightly I could hardly breathe. He pressed his own head up against my hair and I could tell he was trying to calm himself down.
Finally, after I don't know how long, Flynn suddenly loosened his grip. He started to tilt backwards. He was fast asleep! How on earth could he DO that?? I grabbed frantically at him, and at least managed to ease his fall - I ended up being dragged down as well. When he hit the shelf, he jolted awake.
"You fell asleep. Sorry, but I don't think I can carry you..." I tried to joke, but failed sorely.
He sat up and I curled up against him. It was actually chilly, compared to our more recent muggy weather. I pressed as close to Flynn as I possibly could. I just felt like I needed to hold onto something that I knew - or at least, I really hoped - that nothing would happen to. And I think we both fell asleep that way.
Why did Tangled Fan take our foster kids?? I mean, I get that we hadn't full-out adopted them, but still. Ask as person before you take them all away! Rather...ask a DOLL before you take their foster dolls away. We have feelings, too - imagine if she had kids that were taken away from her! She wouldn't like it much, either, I bet.
So I'll keep you guys updated best as I can...I'm sure Flynn will have a hot and enraged post up sometime..and he's surely entitled to it, between my behavior and Tangled Fan! Poor guy.
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Flynn here - 1 week anniversary!
Thursday, I woke up early, in anticipation of the day's events that I'd planned. When I woke, though, Rapunzel was still fast asleep. I just laid there and watched her. When she finally did wake, she turned to me with a smile, telling me good morning. She slid her arm comfortably onto my chest, and I put a hand on her arm.
"Probably should get up now, cause they're expecting the girls soon."
She gave me a completely lost look. "Huh?"
I tried to keep from laughing, as I explained that Merida, Rayne, and Blondie had agreed to watch the girls all day today.
"Ohh. All day?" She asked.
I stood, in hopes that she wouldn't keep after me about it - cause I wanted it to be a surprise day - but then I remembered who I was married to.
She followed me to the 'deck', grinning and asking what we were going to do.
"It wouldn't be a surprise if I told you." I said, trying to not smile at her curiosity.
"Fine." She pretended to sulk, but only for a few minutes. She grabbed my arm and tried to tickle me.
However, I am not very ticklish. But I did know one thing. Rapunzel was very, very ticklish. I wrapped an arm around her and started tickling her back. She started to squeal, but cut it off short when she realized she would wake just about every doll in the room if she would. She pretended to be mad.
"You're terrible." She managed to escape my grip and crossed her arms, getting a mock-raged look on her face.
"You started it!" I laughed at her attempt to be mad.
She gave me a shove, and I grabbed her hand before she pulled it away, and pulled her in for a quick kiss.
She gave me the world's biggest (and cutest) smile. "I...I'd best get ready, then, if you're not gonna tell me what we're gonna do."
She left, and I got to work getting the kids ready.
When she came back, she had a defeated look on her face, wearing her usual dress and her hair in a braid.
"I couldn't find anything decent, so this'll have to do...sorry." She didn't meet my eyes, and I could tell she had really wanted to dress up for me today, even though I could care less about what she was wearing - just as long as I got to be with my girl.
I swept her up into a hug and told her she was beautiful. She smiled again, and then turned to see Merida peeking over the edge of the shelf.
"Ye gonna bring them kiddos up anytime soon?" she asked.
Rapunzel nodded, and we got to work.
When all four of the girls were settled, I watched as Rayne held Hallie.
She smiled, and Hallie blinked, totally wide-eyed, at her. I was expecting a loud, fearful scream to erupt from Hallie, and Rapunzel grabbed my hand - I don't think she even realized it.
But no scream came. Merida, Rapunzel, and I exchanged relieved glances. Rayne caught us and laughed.
"You guys go have a fun, romantic day, now!" Rayne said, winking at Rapunzel. My wife blushed, and I took her hand and led her off the shelf.
When we were at the floor, we just kind of talked for awhile.
We talked about the girls, how much things have changed in the past month, how cute Jase's dimples were, how muggy the weather's been, and just general stuff. I smiled the whole time, at her gleeful, young attitude, and how she smiled and just seemed so innocent.
I almost didn't catch when the music started, and almost forgot altogether that I'd asked Rayne to play the playlist I'd compiled on Tangled Fan's iPod... so I kind of quickly swung Rapunzel in towards me and caught her into my arms.
"Dance?" I asked.
Her voice trembled, and she smiled sweetly when she said, "Sure."
I guided her around and around, and she seemed absolutely awed.
In her own blog post, she included the links to all the songs I'd compiled, only in youtube links, so here's the link to her blog post in case you wanna go see.
After the guitar piece on the last song waned to an end, we stopped as well. I still held her waist loosely, and she smiled sweetly up at me, again.
"Thank you for being such a wonderful hubby."
My heart drummed, and I impulsively tipped her back for a kiss. She returned it, but right in the middle of all this, I heard the door click.
I gently and reluctantly pulled away from her, stood upright, and glanced awkwardly towards the door. Tangled Fan stood there, with a smile, and her cell phone in hand. I knew what that meant. Photoshoot time...sigh. There went half of our day I'd planned...
She took the four girls up off the shelf, and in the other hand, bent down and snapped Rapunzel and I up.
I glanced over at Rapunzel, and saw the angry sparks in her eyes. Uh oh.
I was somewhat surprised that she didn't tell Tangled Fan off, but she was probably thinking plenty of things right then!
Anyway, my wife included some of the photoshoot pictures in her post, if you wanna check it out.
After we were released, we wandered over to the window. It was raining...again. Big surprise there! She sighed, putting a hand on the glass, and grumbled about how she wished the weather wouldn't be so nasty anymore.
"That's for sure." I agreed. "At least our plans weren't ruined!" I grinned (although, some of the plans were ruined by Tangled Fan...but that's beside the point.) She got a cute, slightly embarrassed smile on her face, and I reached to kiss her forehead. My wife turned several lovely shades of pink, but she put her head on my shoulder.
After awhile, we retreated back to the shelf, because it was starting to storm. Rapunzel went off to work on her blog post...until it started storming, anyway!
I waited till the storm was over, to work on mine ;)
And that's basically it. Nothing overly romantic, just a hopeless couple's 1 week anniversary, or as my wife says, "anni". I hope we celebrate a gazillion more 'annis'. (If that even makes sense) :D
"Probably should get up now, cause they're expecting the girls soon."
She gave me a completely lost look. "Huh?"
I tried to keep from laughing, as I explained that Merida, Rayne, and Blondie had agreed to watch the girls all day today.
"Ohh. All day?" She asked.
I stood, in hopes that she wouldn't keep after me about it - cause I wanted it to be a surprise day - but then I remembered who I was married to.
She followed me to the 'deck', grinning and asking what we were going to do.
"It wouldn't be a surprise if I told you." I said, trying to not smile at her curiosity.
"Fine." She pretended to sulk, but only for a few minutes. She grabbed my arm and tried to tickle me.
However, I am not very ticklish. But I did know one thing. Rapunzel was very, very ticklish. I wrapped an arm around her and started tickling her back. She started to squeal, but cut it off short when she realized she would wake just about every doll in the room if she would. She pretended to be mad.
"You're terrible." She managed to escape my grip and crossed her arms, getting a mock-raged look on her face.
"You started it!" I laughed at her attempt to be mad.
She gave me a shove, and I grabbed her hand before she pulled it away, and pulled her in for a quick kiss.
She gave me the world's biggest (and cutest) smile. "I...I'd best get ready, then, if you're not gonna tell me what we're gonna do."
She left, and I got to work getting the kids ready.
When she came back, she had a defeated look on her face, wearing her usual dress and her hair in a braid.
"I couldn't find anything decent, so this'll have to do...sorry." She didn't meet my eyes, and I could tell she had really wanted to dress up for me today, even though I could care less about what she was wearing - just as long as I got to be with my girl.
I swept her up into a hug and told her she was beautiful. She smiled again, and then turned to see Merida peeking over the edge of the shelf.
"Ye gonna bring them kiddos up anytime soon?" she asked.
Rapunzel nodded, and we got to work.
When all four of the girls were settled, I watched as Rayne held Hallie.
She smiled, and Hallie blinked, totally wide-eyed, at her. I was expecting a loud, fearful scream to erupt from Hallie, and Rapunzel grabbed my hand - I don't think she even realized it.
But no scream came. Merida, Rapunzel, and I exchanged relieved glances. Rayne caught us and laughed.
"You guys go have a fun, romantic day, now!" Rayne said, winking at Rapunzel. My wife blushed, and I took her hand and led her off the shelf.
When we were at the floor, we just kind of talked for awhile.
We talked about the girls, how much things have changed in the past month, how cute Jase's dimples were, how muggy the weather's been, and just general stuff. I smiled the whole time, at her gleeful, young attitude, and how she smiled and just seemed so innocent.
I almost didn't catch when the music started, and almost forgot altogether that I'd asked Rayne to play the playlist I'd compiled on Tangled Fan's iPod... so I kind of quickly swung Rapunzel in towards me and caught her into my arms.
"Dance?" I asked.
Her voice trembled, and she smiled sweetly when she said, "Sure."
I guided her around and around, and she seemed absolutely awed.
In her own blog post, she included the links to all the songs I'd compiled, only in youtube links, so here's the link to her blog post in case you wanna go see.
After the guitar piece on the last song waned to an end, we stopped as well. I still held her waist loosely, and she smiled sweetly up at me, again.
"Thank you for being such a wonderful hubby."
My heart drummed, and I impulsively tipped her back for a kiss. She returned it, but right in the middle of all this, I heard the door click.
I gently and reluctantly pulled away from her, stood upright, and glanced awkwardly towards the door. Tangled Fan stood there, with a smile, and her cell phone in hand. I knew what that meant. Photoshoot time...sigh. There went half of our day I'd planned...
She took the four girls up off the shelf, and in the other hand, bent down and snapped Rapunzel and I up.
I glanced over at Rapunzel, and saw the angry sparks in her eyes. Uh oh.
I was somewhat surprised that she didn't tell Tangled Fan off, but she was probably thinking plenty of things right then!
Anyway, my wife included some of the photoshoot pictures in her post, if you wanna check it out.
After we were released, we wandered over to the window. It was raining...again. Big surprise there! She sighed, putting a hand on the glass, and grumbled about how she wished the weather wouldn't be so nasty anymore.
"That's for sure." I agreed. "At least our plans weren't ruined!" I grinned (although, some of the plans were ruined by Tangled Fan...but that's beside the point.) She got a cute, slightly embarrassed smile on her face, and I reached to kiss her forehead. My wife turned several lovely shades of pink, but she put her head on my shoulder.
After awhile, we retreated back to the shelf, because it was starting to storm. Rapunzel went off to work on her blog post...until it started storming, anyway!
I waited till the storm was over, to work on mine ;)
And that's basically it. Nothing overly romantic, just a hopeless couple's 1 week anniversary, or as my wife says, "anni". I hope we celebrate a gazillion more 'annis'. (If that even makes sense) :D
1 week anniversary :D
Thursday dawned muggy, but not rainy for once! We'd been married for one week already - Sometimes, though, I can't believe it's been JUST one week!
I woke up to find Flynn already awake. I propped myself up on my elbow and smiled at him. "Morning," I said with a smile.
He put a hand on my arm with a grin. "Probably should get up now, cause they're expecting the girls soon."
"Huh?" I asked, slightly lost.
"Them." he nodded towards Merida's shelf. "They're gonna watch the girls today."
"Ohhh. All day?"
He stood, and I followed him, grinning. "What're we gonna do?"
"It wouldn't be a surprise if I told you." He tried to keep a stone face.
"Fine." I pretended to sulk, but then I grabbed him and tried to tickle him. Unfortunately, I figured out that he wasn't ticklish. So instead, he grabbed me back and tickled me. And I'm super ticklish.
"You're terrible." I pretended to be mad.
"You started it," he laughed.
I rolled my eyes and gave him a shove before he pulled me in for a quick kiss.
Then, I decided I'd best get ready. Since it was our 1 week anni, (it wouldn't be much of a big deal, but with us dolls, we never know when one or both of us are going to end up dismembered by a child or something, so we try to make the most of everything when we're married), I scrounged around and found a couple other outfits to try on.
The first was a shirt and skirt set from Barbie. It was cute, but I didn't really like how it looked on me. Besides, I could hardly pull the skirt over my hips! Didn't Barbies have any hips at all?! I got the Velcro fastened, and then looked down. Half of my belly was sticking out, and no matter how far I yanked the skirt up, it still showed. Ummm, no.
Next, I tried on the Barbie dress Merida wore at my wedding. It was cute, but I think - no, I KNOW it looked better on Merida than it did me! And it was pretty loose - one wrong move and half the bodice would slide down. Ummm, no, again. Sighing, I put my original dress back on and braided my hair.
Putting one hand on my arm, I walked over to Flynn and said, "I couldn't find anything decent, so this'll have to do..sorry."
He split into a grin, though, and swept me up into a hug. "You're beautiful."
I smiled up at him...and then I spotted Merida peering down from their shelf.
"You gonna bring them kiddos up anytime soon?" She asked with a grin.
I nodded, and we started carting the kids up to the shelf.
Merida took Allie and Jase; Janet went to talk with Blondie.
Rayne took Hallie and held her. A huge, huge smile split her face.
Hallie blinked at her, wide-eyed, and I held my breath in wait of a bloodcurdling scream to rise from that tiny baby.
When no screech came, Merida, Flynn, and I exchanged surprised looks. Rayne caught on to our 'looks' and laughed.
"You guys go have a nice, romantic day, now." She winked at me and I blushed.
I waved to everyone, and let Flynn lead me down the shelf.
When we were down there, I held his hand and we talked about whatever came to our minds. He smiled whenever I'd talk, as if he was basking in every word I said. It made me feel kind of embarrassed, not used to being so loved! Not like I don't enjoy it, though ;)
Then he swung me in towards him, as I heard some music come on. "Dance?"
My heart flitted. "S-sure," I smiled, carefully putting an arm around his waist and another on his shoulder. He held me more comfortably than he had the other day.
And then we just danced. Nothing too major-ly exciting about that...just enchanting and I hope I'm getting better at dancing! And I'm so glad to have such a great hubby that will dance with a complete hopeless like me :P
He'd put together a playlist on Tangled Fan's iPod. I included the list of the songs, from YouTube, here - in case you want to listen to any of them (:
(Okay, so it should be pretty well-established that we LOVE The Band Perry by now. :D)
When the music stopped, we eased to a stop as well.
"Thank you for being such a wonderful hubby." I smiled up at him.
He impulsively tipped me backwards and gave me a big kiss, which I gladly returned. He eventually tipped me back upright, and when he pulled away from me, he glanced sheepishly towards the door.
Tangled Fan was standing there, with a big ole' grin on her face and her cell phone in her hand.
Can you say, "knock before entering, PLEASE?!" I mean, I know this is her bedroom, but...when there are dolls in here too, you'd think you would need to knock to make sure you weren't getting into the middle of something. Just saying...Oh well.
She walked over to the shelf, picked up all the girls, and with her other hand, snagged Flynn and I up to do a photoshoot.
I was pretty annoyed that we had to do this today, but that's another 'oh well'. Here are our favorites:
This one is kind of a laugh. Janet was the only one facing the camera.
Flynn and I were looking towards the door after hearing something, and Jase..I'm not sure what on earth she was doing! :P
Flynn trying to be a big macho guy and have all four kids in one pic. Janet got a good laugh out of him, and I did, too. Almost everything about him makes me laugh or at least smile. But we're still newlyweds, and anyway, off to the rest of the pics. ;)
When we were released to do as we pleased, and Tangled Fan had set the kids back with Merida, Rayne, and Blondie, Flynn and I just meandered about and talked some more.
After awhile, though, we heard some pitter-pattering, and climbed up to the windowsill to look out the window.
Annnd it was raining. Again. I put a hand against the glass and sighed. "I wish this crummy rain would go away. And bring some less-humid weather in!"
Flynn nodded. "That's for sure. At least our plans weren't ruined!" He grinned, and my heart thudded hard against my ribcage. Be still, my heart! :D
He reached an arm around me and kissed my forehead. I wondered if the room suddenly got hotter, or if it was just my face.
And right now, it's getting to be a really bad storm here, so I gotta go...! Ugh, this weather.
Monday, July 8, 2013
Flynn here...Monday confessions
Hey everyone. Yes, I am stealing my wife's title for today's post - I couldn't think of anything else :P
Last night I had the most awful migraine ever, and so we both stayed up till really late. I was surprised to awake at 6 in the morning, when Rapunzel woke me up by pulling her arm out from under my back.
I looked at her groggily and told her good morning. I heard how gravelly my voice sounded, so I cleared my throat. She took a deep breath and pulled her pretty face up to smile at me.
"Morning - feel any better?" she asked, turning her head to look at me with a creased brow.
To attempt to lighten the mood, although I still had a tiny bit of a headache, I said, "Right now, I feel pretty great," referring to the fact that my wife was at my side. I gave her a squeeze with my arm, which was around her. She rolled her eyes, which was at least halfways the response I wanted, and I added, "No, really, I feel a lot better than I did last night, that's for sure!"
She leaned over me and gave me a kiss. I could see the relief in her eyes. "I'm sooo glad."
Which was what was nagging at me in the back of my mind. If these migraines turned into a chronic event, I didn't want her to be worried all the time about me. She deserved much better than that. I bit my lip.
Rapunzel sat up, and so I did too. She turned her face towards me and smiled, put an arm around my waist, and asked, "What? I know you're thinking about something."
I looked at her, too, and watched her blink her big, emerald-green eyes at me, waiting. I put an arm around her and held her tight to me for a few seconds. Then I stood up, and headed for the 'deck' in hopes of clearing the thought about chronic migraines out of my head before she hounded at me too much. But it was too late for that..she followed me out and waited.
Finally, I spoke my concern, and told her that if she didn't want to deal with that chronic possibility, we could call it quits and I would understand.
Her eyes teared up, and she grabbed at one of my arms, smoothing my sleeve with her hand. "Oh, Flynn...no way, never, ever in a gazillion trillion years, am I leaving you just because you might have a bad headache once in awhile! Now I know it's not as bad as I thought it was originally. In case I've never told you, I love you so much. And if you ever end up in the Dumpster, I hope I go at the same time, cause I could never live without you. And if you think I don't want to be your wife anymore because of some piddly headaches, you've got another thing coming, mister! Regardless, she [Tangled Fan], said it was from sleep deprivation, not just because."
My taut, knotted-up stomach immediately relaxed, and I felt relieved. I found her hand and loosely held it, until she grabbed me up into a hug, sniffing and wiping her eyes.
I kissed her hair and wrapped her in my arms, and we just stood there. Eventually, she pulled away from me enough to see my face. "You get some idea like that in your head again, and I'll swat you one," she joked, winking.
I smiled at her, and she pulled away to braid her hair.
I went off towards the other end of the 'deck', to go peer out the window, wondering if it was going to be another crummy-weather day. It didn't seem like it!
When I heard Rapunzel grumbling, "Stupid ribbon anyhow...can't get it unknotted to save my life...why won't this loosen up? Rrrgh!" through her teeth, I turned to look at her. As soon as I did, I saw she was trying to hold her braid in place in one hand and unknot her ribbon..using her teeth. I started laughing and strode over to her. "Spit it out and let me get that for ya." I picked the knot loose, tied her hair up for her, and finally stopped chuckling at the situation. We'll not elaborate on the fact that the ribbon was kinda damp from her spit.
"Thanks," she laughed. I nodded. I would've kissed her cheek, but we both turned when we heard the babies waking up.
We both sat down and picked them up and hushed them before they started to even whimper.
"We're getting to be old pros at this." Rapunzel giggled, and I was amused, because I'd been thinking the exact same thing. I slung my free arm around her and nodded in agreement.
She leaned over to talk to Allie. "Tell Daddy he's silly, huh!" I felt a warmth envelope me to hear her call me 'daddy' when she was talking to Allie. I don't know why though, but I just did. I plopped a kiss down on Rapunzel's head, and Allie grinned. I could tell Rapunzel was wrapped around the babies' little fingers.
And then Jase came tearing over. Rapunzel scooped her up, too, and then Janet came out as well. She talked with both of them for a few seconds, and then turned to me, and asked if she could take the girls out for a girl's day out.
I agreed to care for the babies and that I would be fine. She handed Hallie over to me and leaned over to kiss me goodbye. "See you later." She said, smiling.
I shifted the babies to one arm and brushed some hair away from her face, pausing to cup my hand over her cheek. She gave me a loving look and put her hand over mine, squeezing it. She seemed to stand a bit reluctantly when Jase came back over.
Pretty soon, Merida was working her way down the shelf, and they all left.
I blinked at the deafening silence...for a few seconds. Hallie started huffing, so I took them out on the 'deck'. I walked back and forth for awhile, and then went back onto the shelf when they had both fallen soundly asleep in my arms. Smiling to myself at how serene they looked, I set them down to nap and yawned. I was still tired, and I could feel my twinge of a headache start to worsen, so I retreated to go nap myself, in hopes of making the headache go away before my wife came back home.
I got up a few times with the babies, but they were pretty good. After awhile, my headache finally went away - thank goodness! It was afternoon before the girls finally all came back home. Jase and Janet left to play in the corner, and Merida and Rapunzel came over towards me. Linking her arm in Rapunzel's, Merida cocked her head and said, "And here's yer lovely wife." She giggled.
Rapunzel laughed at Merida, but then randomly ran and scrambled up to Rayne's shelf.
Merida looked at me with a brow quirked, nodding her head towards where Rapunzel had stood seconds ago. I shrugged, frowning in confusion, and she shrugged too.
When Rapunzel came back a couple minutes later, Merida turned towards her. "Don't need to worry about coming back quick - I can watch these gals for any amount of time. It's boring up on that shelf!" When Rapunzel gave her a thankful smile, she added, with a grin that spelled 'trouble', "Now, go enjoy your hubby and smooch while you're not interrupted by the kiddos."
It worked. Rapunzel put a hand over her eyes and turned a lovely shade of crimson. "We don't...well...we talk, aaand walk, and-" I came up behind her, gave her a peck on the forehead, and felt the need to tease as well.
"And smooch." I grinned, and she gave me a shove.
Merida was laughing at our antics. She snorted when Rapunzel shoved me, and that made her laugh even harder.
"Shush," Rapunzel told me. "It's not all we do. I take it you're feeling fine now, 'cause you're back to your usual self!"
"Just go!" Merida was fighting laughter now, but her eyes were tearing from her effort.
Rapunzel laughed a thanks, and I led her down to the floor.
When we were down there, Rapunzel took my hand and we walked. She had a carefree spring in her step, swinging her arm back and forth, [and my arm too], and chattering about her day.
"We had a lot of fun today. Thank you so much for watching the babies! How were they?"
"I'm glad you had fun. They were really good, actually! So what all did you do?" I enjoyed watching her talk with a sparkle in her eye and such an innocent smile on her face.
"We went over to visit the 18 inchers. Merida visited with Angus, and Jase got to sit on Angus with her. She really enjoyed it - we'll probably end up having to ask Tangled Fan to find a horse for Jase, based off of the huge smile on her face! Janet visited with the mini dolls, and I visited with Julie, Elizabeth, and Christy. They're so nice! Kailey's still a bit off-putting, but I just don't talk to her, cause I know she doesn't like to be friendly, or whatever her problem is. Thank you so much, again, for watching the babies!"
While she talked, I started to think about what I wanted to tell her. You already know I'm not the best with words, so I was pretty nervous. Finally, I stopped walking. Rapunzel turned around and asked me what.
I pulled on her arm carefully, and it sent her right into me. "What?" she repeated, putting her arms loosely around my waist.
I wanted to tell her, I really did. And there was something else I wanted to say, too. So instead, I made a joke. "Just...I dunno. Just cause you're my wife, and I love you to plastic bits and pieces."
She giggled, and I got that funny feeling in my stomach again (the good kind, not the migraine kind :p).
"Oh, you. You're bad! But I love you, too. And I'm glad you're back to yourself!"
I put an arm around her, used my other hand to remove one of her arms from my waist, so I could hold her hand.
Rapunzel leaned her head on my shoulder for a few minutes, but then she looked up at me with questioning eyes, slipping her hand away from me.
"Why're you so, like, affectionate with me? I mean, it's not like I don't like or appreciate it; but I was just curious why."
I took a deep breath, and told her my fear that our marriage would fall apart because I rushed her.
And then I decided I wanted to tell her the other thing, too. I opened my mouth, but she stopped me. "Before you go on, I want to say this - Don't you ever, EVER, think our marriage will be wrecked 'cause we moved quickly. Or because of injuries or headaches. It was just as much my fault as it was yours that we moved fast. And mine that you got that headache. And truth is? I'm glad we got married so soon - I can enjoy you as my hubby for longer, now!"
I was going to contradict her, that she wasn't at fault for anything, but I just smiled hugely at her, relieved. She smiled back, and my heart sped up as I considered what I wanted to say next.
I led her up onto the chair, but then I decided not to say anything.
"Whatever it is you wanted to say, I won't laugh or anything. Just say it," she smiled still. Obviously, she hadn't forgotten, and wouldn't drop it, either.
I fidgeted around plenty, and then I just spilled my guts to her, with all I wanted to say to her about how much I really did care about her.
When I opened my eyes, which I'd squeezed shut while speaking, to keep focus, Rapunzel was crying openly.
I panicked. "I told you I wasn't good with words. I'm so sorr-"
She broke me off. "No! You..you were perfect!"
I smiled at her and reached to wipe her wet cheeks.
"You gave such a gorgeous speech. For a guy who supposedly is awful with words..I don't think you give yourself enough credit. I feel the same way about you. I still get the butterflies and a tingle up my spine when I see you, and I feel like a little schoolgirl with a gigantic crush, every time I see that cute little grin of yours - yeah, that's the one" - she said when I grinned at her - "and you're so handsome, and soo impossibly sweet. It never fails to amaze me how gentle you can be. I mean, in the movie, you were some ruffian...but I guess after you met me in the movie, you turned into a sweetheart. But anyway. You do have a way with words, by the way. You make my knees go to Jell-o...either that, or it's just this heat - but I don't think so. And I just love you!" She finally finished, and I was fighting tears myself - one tear had already escaped. It takes a lot to make ME cry! She gently wiped the tear from my cheek, and my heart nearly faltered.
I leaned into her until our foreheads touched. She and I stared at each other, but she quickly shut her eyes when they started to cross [I kid you not]. Abruptly, she pulled away.
"What?" I asked, wondering why she was so jumpy about displaying her affections.
"They can probably see us from here," she said, casting a guilty glance up towards the shelves. "And I dunno. I just feel a bit awkward being so open in our affection - but you know what?"
"There's no other place around here that we CAN be at that dolls aren't gonna see us." I finished for her.
"Exactly."
"So why feel awkward?" I asked, confused. "If it makes you feel weird, I'll.." I started to withdraw my arm from her shoulders, but she snagged my arm and held it.
"No. You know what? I'm gonna stop holding back and feeling awkward about it. If some doll has an issue with me loving you, they can keep it to themselves!"
I felt like teasing her after that. "So you won't mind if I do this?" I tried to ask with an innocent expression on my face.
"Do what?" she asked. I grabbed her and started to tickle her. [even though we're plastic, we can still be ticklish, mind!] She yelped in surprise and elbowed me. I made an exaggerated fall backwards, as if she'd knocked me down, and she flopped down as well, dissolving into giggles that made me grin. I slipped my arm around her, and she rested her head on my chest and smiled sweetly at me, laughter still glimmering in her eyes.
After not too long, she dozed off, exhausted from her sleepless night, probably. I looked at her to make sure she was asleep and not just laying really still. Her eyes were shut, a peaceful grin still played across her pink lips. I slowly stroked her hair, hoping not to wake her up. And then I guess I must've nodded off for a bit, too.
When I woke up, the sun was starting to set - I glimpsed it through the window - and Rapunzel was still out. Her smile was still on her face and I hated to disturb her, hoping she'd wake up without me doing anything to wake her. But after it grew dark, I knew we needed to get back to Merida and the kids. I tried to ease her up off the chair to carry her to bed, but she quickly woke.
"Flynn."
"What?" Even though I knew full well what 'Flynn' meant.
"Put me down."
"I'll just-"
"Put me down. Please,"
I sighed, but did give in, lowering her legs, but still keeping a hold around her shoulders.
"Thank you," she said, kissing me on the cheek.
So then we went home, and were greeted by Merida.
I peeked around and saw all the kids were sprawled out in random spots, played out and sleeping hard.
Rapunzel and Merida chatted quietly for a few minutes, but then she left, and my wife turned towards me, unbraiding her hair.
"And thank you for this wonderful day, again." She grinned, then went to lie down behind the lamp. I followed her and sat down.
Leaning down, we shared a goodnight kiss, before I lowered myself down beside my wife. Rapunzel fumbled around till she found my hand and grasped it, with a smile that lit the darkening room. I smoothed my hand over her hair over and over. "You're the best wife anyone could ever ask for, and never forget that I love you." I whispered to her, though I didn't think she'd soon forget the love we shared for one another! Anyway, then I was asleep too.
I'm hoping Rapunzel wants to keep the tradition of having evenings to ourselves, because I've begun to really like it, and I tend to be able to tell her lots of things that are on my mind, during then.
Last night I had the most awful migraine ever, and so we both stayed up till really late. I was surprised to awake at 6 in the morning, when Rapunzel woke me up by pulling her arm out from under my back.
I looked at her groggily and told her good morning. I heard how gravelly my voice sounded, so I cleared my throat. She took a deep breath and pulled her pretty face up to smile at me.
"Morning - feel any better?" she asked, turning her head to look at me with a creased brow.
To attempt to lighten the mood, although I still had a tiny bit of a headache, I said, "Right now, I feel pretty great," referring to the fact that my wife was at my side. I gave her a squeeze with my arm, which was around her. She rolled her eyes, which was at least halfways the response I wanted, and I added, "No, really, I feel a lot better than I did last night, that's for sure!"
She leaned over me and gave me a kiss. I could see the relief in her eyes. "I'm sooo glad."
Which was what was nagging at me in the back of my mind. If these migraines turned into a chronic event, I didn't want her to be worried all the time about me. She deserved much better than that. I bit my lip.
Rapunzel sat up, and so I did too. She turned her face towards me and smiled, put an arm around my waist, and asked, "What? I know you're thinking about something."
I looked at her, too, and watched her blink her big, emerald-green eyes at me, waiting. I put an arm around her and held her tight to me for a few seconds. Then I stood up, and headed for the 'deck' in hopes of clearing the thought about chronic migraines out of my head before she hounded at me too much. But it was too late for that..she followed me out and waited.
Finally, I spoke my concern, and told her that if she didn't want to deal with that chronic possibility, we could call it quits and I would understand.
Her eyes teared up, and she grabbed at one of my arms, smoothing my sleeve with her hand. "Oh, Flynn...no way, never, ever in a gazillion trillion years, am I leaving you just because you might have a bad headache once in awhile! Now I know it's not as bad as I thought it was originally. In case I've never told you, I love you so much. And if you ever end up in the Dumpster, I hope I go at the same time, cause I could never live without you. And if you think I don't want to be your wife anymore because of some piddly headaches, you've got another thing coming, mister! Regardless, she [Tangled Fan], said it was from sleep deprivation, not just because."
My taut, knotted-up stomach immediately relaxed, and I felt relieved. I found her hand and loosely held it, until she grabbed me up into a hug, sniffing and wiping her eyes.
I kissed her hair and wrapped her in my arms, and we just stood there. Eventually, she pulled away from me enough to see my face. "You get some idea like that in your head again, and I'll swat you one," she joked, winking.
I smiled at her, and she pulled away to braid her hair.
I went off towards the other end of the 'deck', to go peer out the window, wondering if it was going to be another crummy-weather day. It didn't seem like it!
When I heard Rapunzel grumbling, "Stupid ribbon anyhow...can't get it unknotted to save my life...why won't this loosen up? Rrrgh!" through her teeth, I turned to look at her. As soon as I did, I saw she was trying to hold her braid in place in one hand and unknot her ribbon..using her teeth. I started laughing and strode over to her. "Spit it out and let me get that for ya." I picked the knot loose, tied her hair up for her, and finally stopped chuckling at the situation. We'll not elaborate on the fact that the ribbon was kinda damp from her spit.
"Thanks," she laughed. I nodded. I would've kissed her cheek, but we both turned when we heard the babies waking up.
We both sat down and picked them up and hushed them before they started to even whimper.
"We're getting to be old pros at this." Rapunzel giggled, and I was amused, because I'd been thinking the exact same thing. I slung my free arm around her and nodded in agreement.
She leaned over to talk to Allie. "Tell Daddy he's silly, huh!" I felt a warmth envelope me to hear her call me 'daddy' when she was talking to Allie. I don't know why though, but I just did. I plopped a kiss down on Rapunzel's head, and Allie grinned. I could tell Rapunzel was wrapped around the babies' little fingers.
And then Jase came tearing over. Rapunzel scooped her up, too, and then Janet came out as well. She talked with both of them for a few seconds, and then turned to me, and asked if she could take the girls out for a girl's day out.
I agreed to care for the babies and that I would be fine. She handed Hallie over to me and leaned over to kiss me goodbye. "See you later." She said, smiling.
I shifted the babies to one arm and brushed some hair away from her face, pausing to cup my hand over her cheek. She gave me a loving look and put her hand over mine, squeezing it. She seemed to stand a bit reluctantly when Jase came back over.
Pretty soon, Merida was working her way down the shelf, and they all left.
I blinked at the deafening silence...for a few seconds. Hallie started huffing, so I took them out on the 'deck'. I walked back and forth for awhile, and then went back onto the shelf when they had both fallen soundly asleep in my arms. Smiling to myself at how serene they looked, I set them down to nap and yawned. I was still tired, and I could feel my twinge of a headache start to worsen, so I retreated to go nap myself, in hopes of making the headache go away before my wife came back home.
I got up a few times with the babies, but they were pretty good. After awhile, my headache finally went away - thank goodness! It was afternoon before the girls finally all came back home. Jase and Janet left to play in the corner, and Merida and Rapunzel came over towards me. Linking her arm in Rapunzel's, Merida cocked her head and said, "And here's yer lovely wife." She giggled.
Rapunzel laughed at Merida, but then randomly ran and scrambled up to Rayne's shelf.
Merida looked at me with a brow quirked, nodding her head towards where Rapunzel had stood seconds ago. I shrugged, frowning in confusion, and she shrugged too.
When Rapunzel came back a couple minutes later, Merida turned towards her. "Don't need to worry about coming back quick - I can watch these gals for any amount of time. It's boring up on that shelf!" When Rapunzel gave her a thankful smile, she added, with a grin that spelled 'trouble', "Now, go enjoy your hubby and smooch while you're not interrupted by the kiddos."
It worked. Rapunzel put a hand over her eyes and turned a lovely shade of crimson. "We don't...well...we talk, aaand walk, and-" I came up behind her, gave her a peck on the forehead, and felt the need to tease as well.
"And smooch." I grinned, and she gave me a shove.
Merida was laughing at our antics. She snorted when Rapunzel shoved me, and that made her laugh even harder.
"Shush," Rapunzel told me. "It's not all we do. I take it you're feeling fine now, 'cause you're back to your usual self!"
"Just go!" Merida was fighting laughter now, but her eyes were tearing from her effort.
Rapunzel laughed a thanks, and I led her down to the floor.
When we were down there, Rapunzel took my hand and we walked. She had a carefree spring in her step, swinging her arm back and forth, [and my arm too], and chattering about her day.
"We had a lot of fun today. Thank you so much for watching the babies! How were they?"
"I'm glad you had fun. They were really good, actually! So what all did you do?" I enjoyed watching her talk with a sparkle in her eye and such an innocent smile on her face.
"We went over to visit the 18 inchers. Merida visited with Angus, and Jase got to sit on Angus with her. She really enjoyed it - we'll probably end up having to ask Tangled Fan to find a horse for Jase, based off of the huge smile on her face! Janet visited with the mini dolls, and I visited with Julie, Elizabeth, and Christy. They're so nice! Kailey's still a bit off-putting, but I just don't talk to her, cause I know she doesn't like to be friendly, or whatever her problem is. Thank you so much, again, for watching the babies!"
While she talked, I started to think about what I wanted to tell her. You already know I'm not the best with words, so I was pretty nervous. Finally, I stopped walking. Rapunzel turned around and asked me what.
I pulled on her arm carefully, and it sent her right into me. "What?" she repeated, putting her arms loosely around my waist.
I wanted to tell her, I really did. And there was something else I wanted to say, too. So instead, I made a joke. "Just...I dunno. Just cause you're my wife, and I love you to plastic bits and pieces."
She giggled, and I got that funny feeling in my stomach again (the good kind, not the migraine kind :p).
"Oh, you. You're bad! But I love you, too. And I'm glad you're back to yourself!"
I put an arm around her, used my other hand to remove one of her arms from my waist, so I could hold her hand.
Rapunzel leaned her head on my shoulder for a few minutes, but then she looked up at me with questioning eyes, slipping her hand away from me.
"Why're you so, like, affectionate with me? I mean, it's not like I don't like or appreciate it; but I was just curious why."
I took a deep breath, and told her my fear that our marriage would fall apart because I rushed her.
And then I decided I wanted to tell her the other thing, too. I opened my mouth, but she stopped me. "Before you go on, I want to say this - Don't you ever, EVER, think our marriage will be wrecked 'cause we moved quickly. Or because of injuries or headaches. It was just as much my fault as it was yours that we moved fast. And mine that you got that headache. And truth is? I'm glad we got married so soon - I can enjoy you as my hubby for longer, now!"
I was going to contradict her, that she wasn't at fault for anything, but I just smiled hugely at her, relieved. She smiled back, and my heart sped up as I considered what I wanted to say next.
I led her up onto the chair, but then I decided not to say anything.
"Whatever it is you wanted to say, I won't laugh or anything. Just say it," she smiled still. Obviously, she hadn't forgotten, and wouldn't drop it, either.
I fidgeted around plenty, and then I just spilled my guts to her, with all I wanted to say to her about how much I really did care about her.
When I opened my eyes, which I'd squeezed shut while speaking, to keep focus, Rapunzel was crying openly.
I panicked. "I told you I wasn't good with words. I'm so sorr-"
She broke me off. "No! You..you were perfect!"
I smiled at her and reached to wipe her wet cheeks.
"You gave such a gorgeous speech. For a guy who supposedly is awful with words..I don't think you give yourself enough credit. I feel the same way about you. I still get the butterflies and a tingle up my spine when I see you, and I feel like a little schoolgirl with a gigantic crush, every time I see that cute little grin of yours - yeah, that's the one" - she said when I grinned at her - "and you're so handsome, and soo impossibly sweet. It never fails to amaze me how gentle you can be. I mean, in the movie, you were some ruffian...but I guess after you met me in the movie, you turned into a sweetheart. But anyway. You do have a way with words, by the way. You make my knees go to Jell-o...either that, or it's just this heat - but I don't think so. And I just love you!" She finally finished, and I was fighting tears myself - one tear had already escaped. It takes a lot to make ME cry! She gently wiped the tear from my cheek, and my heart nearly faltered.
I leaned into her until our foreheads touched. She and I stared at each other, but she quickly shut her eyes when they started to cross [I kid you not]. Abruptly, she pulled away.
"What?" I asked, wondering why she was so jumpy about displaying her affections.
"They can probably see us from here," she said, casting a guilty glance up towards the shelves. "And I dunno. I just feel a bit awkward being so open in our affection - but you know what?"
"There's no other place around here that we CAN be at that dolls aren't gonna see us." I finished for her.
"Exactly."
"So why feel awkward?" I asked, confused. "If it makes you feel weird, I'll.." I started to withdraw my arm from her shoulders, but she snagged my arm and held it.
"No. You know what? I'm gonna stop holding back and feeling awkward about it. If some doll has an issue with me loving you, they can keep it to themselves!"
I felt like teasing her after that. "So you won't mind if I do this?" I tried to ask with an innocent expression on my face.
"Do what?" she asked. I grabbed her and started to tickle her. [even though we're plastic, we can still be ticklish, mind!] She yelped in surprise and elbowed me. I made an exaggerated fall backwards, as if she'd knocked me down, and she flopped down as well, dissolving into giggles that made me grin. I slipped my arm around her, and she rested her head on my chest and smiled sweetly at me, laughter still glimmering in her eyes.
After not too long, she dozed off, exhausted from her sleepless night, probably. I looked at her to make sure she was asleep and not just laying really still. Her eyes were shut, a peaceful grin still played across her pink lips. I slowly stroked her hair, hoping not to wake her up. And then I guess I must've nodded off for a bit, too.
When I woke up, the sun was starting to set - I glimpsed it through the window - and Rapunzel was still out. Her smile was still on her face and I hated to disturb her, hoping she'd wake up without me doing anything to wake her. But after it grew dark, I knew we needed to get back to Merida and the kids. I tried to ease her up off the chair to carry her to bed, but she quickly woke.
"Flynn."
"What?" Even though I knew full well what 'Flynn' meant.
"Put me down."
"I'll just-"
"Put me down. Please,"
I sighed, but did give in, lowering her legs, but still keeping a hold around her shoulders.
"Thank you," she said, kissing me on the cheek.
So then we went home, and were greeted by Merida.
I peeked around and saw all the kids were sprawled out in random spots, played out and sleeping hard.
Rapunzel and Merida chatted quietly for a few minutes, but then she left, and my wife turned towards me, unbraiding her hair.
"And thank you for this wonderful day, again." She grinned, then went to lie down behind the lamp. I followed her and sat down.
Leaning down, we shared a goodnight kiss, before I lowered myself down beside my wife. Rapunzel fumbled around till she found my hand and grasped it, with a smile that lit the darkening room. I smoothed my hand over her hair over and over. "You're the best wife anyone could ever ask for, and never forget that I love you." I whispered to her, though I didn't think she'd soon forget the love we shared for one another! Anyway, then I was asleep too.
I'm hoping Rapunzel wants to keep the tradition of having evenings to ourselves, because I've begun to really like it, and I tend to be able to tell her lots of things that are on my mind, during then.
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